i'm a happy man now because:
1) my exams are over.
2) my high-school life is history.
3) i have 2 months of holidays for my self-indulgence in playing, sleeping, cooking, eating, exercising, etc etc.
4) a new chapter is near: university life.
5) i can shed my cocoon and emerge as truly me to make english-speaking, same interests kind of friends.

FYI, my exams were okay. and tomorrow is a holiday: canada day! it's the ___ national birthday of canada.. will slack off my weekends, and probably my holidays. =/

okay all the crap about going on hiatus. here i am again..

watched bewitched just now. nicole kidman and will ferrell gave a superb performance. i remember watching the tv series when i was younger, so i'm glad it's made into a movie. the movie was kind of good and funny. wish i could twitch my nose the way nicole kidman does.. lol.

oh yes, i'm done with my timetable for utsc. tada! steering towards more of specialist in conservation biology.. so i hope it's good.

now i can study till my heart's content.. definitely going on hiatus now. :)

i'm now cranking over my course selection for my first year at university. in a total blur, especially since i don't really know what i plan to become. either going into more of conservation biology, or animal biology. no more biochemistry or biotechnology which i thought i wanted. it's just frustrating having to decide my future so soon.

going on hiatus till thursday after my exams. so i won't be seen blogging, hopefully. will be mugging. bless me.

to melissa, just type something for the sake of doing so. that's the point of blogs, to let people read? and of course to 'express your inner thoughts'.. lol.

not those kind of home-sick feeling. it's really just being sick of school. school is a chore now. hanging in there till either next wednesday or thursday, for that will be the day of my exams. and then, it will truly be paradise. 2 months of holidays before i start the term at utsc.
maybe i'll find a summer job as a waiter or something to fund my allowance as an international student. but till then it will just be me and my books..

"Love Song" - 311

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

if ancient male chauvinists from the past are to come to the present world, they would kill themselves. seeing how feminism have grown, and how male superiority have declined; and how women's place is not just in the home; and how scantily dressed some can get; they would go insane before being suicidal.

it just so happened males got the upper hand first since the appearance of homo sapiens. or did eve actually lay back in the garden of eden when she could actually overpower adam easily?

there's 1 episode of desperate housewives and 5 episodes of dae jang geum left to watch. then it will be boredom that will fill my time.

we watch sitcoms on tv and laugh together with them. and when the god-knows-how-many-seasons shows end, we mourn over it. like sex and the city, how the 4 girls always talk about their lives while having meals and battling becoming old maids, or 6 friends at central perk drinking coffee and joking in the company of eah other. why isn't our lives like that when we actually enjoy seeing people do that?

oh i know. because what we see happens only on tv.

yes life's a bitch.

just something i felt like expressing. and thankfully i have this blog to do just what i want.

i have stayed the way as a loner eversince i came to toronto. if not for my bro, i would really be a hermit. but now i miss friends. friends whom share the same interest, speak the same, think alike, understand one another. friends that i only had in singapore.

and guess what triggered this so-called random thought? the sitcom friends. watched the episode where they played poker and realized i haven't felt the way they felt in a long time. acting, but still fun! bowling, mahjong, neoprints. these are history to me.

i'm tired trying to fit in now because i know i'm different and so are they. so i have stopped and am annoyed even with the littlest act. i'm becoming un-friendless-ly cynical. SAVE ME!

PS: yes mel, i'm under the warning zone of depression.

the temperature dropped from a sweltering hot one to a windy gloomy one. next week is predicted to be way hot. but for now, i enjoy snuggling under my warm blanket.

there was a heavy downpour of rain coupled with bright flashes of lightning illuminating the dark clouds that covered the supposed bright sky in toronto. i sat in the bus as the raindrops hit the windows and flowed down..
it was like in singapore. with the usual rain, sitting in the bus at 5pm going home, and the sky slowly darkening.

i watched madagascar! okay i love the weird antics of the sickly girraffe, the larger-than-life hippo and the action penguins. the show is all about captive animals from the central park zoo in nyc being back in the wild. funny..

profuse sweating, dizziness, and more sweating. the weather here is killing me. it's kind of the same as singapore, but the lack of air-conditioning here really takes its toil on us. summer here is HOT!

wednesday ended with the back of my pants being drenched with 3 glasses full of water. thursday ended with me realizing i misplaced my toothbrush.

went to andy's house (those of a rich, beautiful bungalow in richmond hill on the outskirts of toronto which is predominantly a rich chinese area) to spend the night with andy, chaucer, angelina and fanny for chaucer's birthday. went to jack astors for dinner. fanny spilt her glass of water, then emily split hers and it knocked over chaucer's glass. and the liquid flowed all over my butt making it look like i pee-ed in my pants.
played his PS2 and at a playground, went for drinks, watched saw and goodbye fireflies. saw is the psycho killings where this man forces ppl to do desperate acts to save their lives, and the ending is totally unexpecting. goodbye fireflies is a sad japanese anime story about a bro and his little sis in the times of war. those who watched it before said they cried alot, but maybe it was exhaustion that i didn't. i even cried watching spirited away, another jap anime i love.
slept only at 6am, till 10am. then was school. .

took the swing as i watched the sky above me that night. little clouds yet little stars. made me think back about 4/1's class chalet. stars, sunrise, cycling, waves..

"Other Side Of The World" - KT Tunstall

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same just like water

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're... the other side of the world
To me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come to move along

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're... the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go?
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

Then the fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're... the other side of the world
Oh... the other side of the world
You're... the other side of the world
To me

my blog's NEW layout!

and i love the music jukebox-look-alike that i made below. so cool! the song playing is one of my fav. she is from scotland with chinese blood. the title is so apt..
i'm on the other side of the world

went to utsc for the 'ready-set-go' event. it's to pick up my registration package, and learn more about university life. and i was telling myself:
i will survive this.

and the new layout is still in the works.

a major redesign is in the works.
COMING SOON!

the mouse-biscuit flavoured mouse-trap set around the places where the on-the-loose mouse was spotted has finally proved it's purpose. the mouse has been caught!
the mouse got stuck in the sticky pad over the night and it's still alive and struggling as i type right now. wanted to use another of the pad to stick over it, but that will be tantamount to me killing it. so we are waiting for it till it dies. torture, i know..


the note proclaiming victory! 'tikus dah ketangkap' is indonesian malay for 'mouse has been caught'. and ironically on the bottom left-corner of the note is a picture of a mouse.


the mouse's hide-out for the past 8 days! gosh, that's long. and i know, the house is messy! =x

the mouse struggled alot and bit into the pad trying to free itself. prepare yourself for these disgusting pictures before you view..







PS: i was interrupted through completing this post. my housemates were saying the mouse is coming free soon. so they put it into a plastic bag and it was thrown into a recycling bin where squirrels often visit.

chatted with my sis who went to school today to see ms ng for student council stuffs. it's that time in the year again to vote for the new exco. and that's the purpose for the meeting.
i rmb the interview i had. with kianann, michelle and geraldine outside the council room discussing away if to say interested or not (in exco). then we all made it into exco 03/04 together. we had laughters, angers, tears and everything. miss u guys!
anyway, my sis is the vice-president of amkss student council board 05/06! congrats! check out my sis blog for the whole exco list.. and so welcome the new leaders. bring the sc board to greater heights!

OMG! miss canada is miss universe!

sunset in the horizon. the supposedly night sky at 9.45pm taken through the little netted window of an apartment room somewhere in toronto.