okay no zoo, no animals today. all for laundry.

i'm feeling real low. deep-bottom low. dark-abyss low. started with yesterday's sudden memories, and discovering how much i still cannot let go the past. and then today after some blog-surfing, it worsened.
things really aren't the same anymore. so are the ppl. so maybe in the mouth things come out how it should sound, but the heart isn't aligned to that same feeling.

for 2 nights i have had the same dream. more of nightmares on the dreaded 'O' levels. i dreamt about having the day before to study for the actual exam. must have been all the memories that have been flooding my little brain. even affecting my night thoughts.

wake me up. from the nightmares; back to dreams.. from the imagination; back to reality..