Quiet is the New Loud
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Monday, May 31, 2004
'O' god. save the world..
'O' level chinese ended today. finally.
was kindda ok for paper 1..
did formal letter on my neighbour not being responsible in looking after his pets. compo wrote on 'if singapore is an ideal home?'..
was kindda tough for paper 2..
freaking shit lost 2 marks due to my carelessness. knew how to write one of the words, but dunnoe why wrote another. and when i handed in the answer sheet, flipped open the question paper, i noticed my DAMN MISTAKE!!! aaRRRGGhhHH!!!!!
hope i will do well for chinese..
pls oh mighty high above.
hear my prayers.
fulfill my wish!
---
let loose after the paper.
went out with sheryl, melissa, yipling, ryan, karthi, joseph, shaoxun, kaiyuan, kenneth to watch 'the day after tomorrow' @ lido orchard..
went home first and changed. met the rest, and karthi was so freaking late.. by half an hour! we waited long. me and ryan saw huifang and regina @ bishan mrt station while waiting for karthi.. met them at the cinema theatre again with friends. coincidence.
the show was cool! interesting. graphics were good. making the show more or less realistic, except for certain parts of the movie..
the world is not the safest place afterall..
living in a world of suspense.
after the show, went for dinner. delay of time when we were undecided about where to eat. some wanted to go marina south for steamboat [*aHem*], while others found it far.. in the end split.
melissa, sheryl, yipling, me, ryan and karthi. didn't noe where to eat too.
seoul garden? full house.
breeks? too ex.
taka foodcourt? no seats.
cineleisure foodcourt? under renovation.
yoshinoya? no space.
ended up with burger king. so long for a fastfood meal. growling stomach. but full after the meal. walked around a while and headed home.
watched friends just now. funny..
guilty of watching tv.
online now. relaxing..
guilty of using the computer.
sleepy now. *yawn*
go to sleep!
was kindda ok for paper 1..
did formal letter on my neighbour not being responsible in looking after his pets. compo wrote on 'if singapore is an ideal home?'..
was kindda tough for paper 2..
freaking shit lost 2 marks due to my carelessness. knew how to write one of the words, but dunnoe why wrote another. and when i handed in the answer sheet, flipped open the question paper, i noticed my DAMN MISTAKE!!! aaRRRGGhhHH!!!!!
hope i will do well for chinese..
pls oh mighty high above.
hear my prayers.
fulfill my wish!
---
let loose after the paper.
went out with sheryl, melissa, yipling, ryan, karthi, joseph, shaoxun, kaiyuan, kenneth to watch 'the day after tomorrow' @ lido orchard..
went home first and changed. met the rest, and karthi was so freaking late.. by half an hour! we waited long. me and ryan saw huifang and regina @ bishan mrt station while waiting for karthi.. met them at the cinema theatre again with friends. coincidence.
the show was cool! interesting. graphics were good. making the show more or less realistic, except for certain parts of the movie..
the world is not the safest place afterall..
living in a world of suspense.
after the show, went for dinner. delay of time when we were undecided about where to eat. some wanted to go marina south for steamboat [*aHem*], while others found it far.. in the end split.
melissa, sheryl, yipling, me, ryan and karthi. didn't noe where to eat too.
seoul garden? full house.
breeks? too ex.
taka foodcourt? no seats.
cineleisure foodcourt? under renovation.
yoshinoya? no space.
ended up with burger king. so long for a fastfood meal. growling stomach. but full after the meal. walked around a while and headed home.
watched friends just now. funny..
guilty of watching tv.
online now. relaxing..
guilty of using the computer.
sleepy now. *yawn*
go to sleep!
tickets? parents, students?
went anderson junior college's canteen to sell the carnival tickets to the ppl with the current exco on thurs.
fun though but it was hard.
some freaking ppl gave us a hard time.
one who actually said "can u see i'm doing work?" yea sure thing, but pls be more courteous even if u aren't interested.. ann got scolded off by dat very same
idiotic person.
some were cool. one actually asked shehnas to say it again bcoz she was away, though not interested, but pure intention to listen.
ex-amksians came to help. asked their friends and stuff.
first to ask was me, but the grp were quite undecided so forget it. in the end they paid ann the $$$..
there went my first deal.
anyway sold little from there. so went to nearby the sch's market and i finally officially sold my first ticket to a family. packed up and went to mac to eat. den went council rm to chill.
though the 'O's were coming, still little pressure felt..
---
ptc was later at night. blah it was bad.
dropped alot. mrs chung kept repeating "4 more months to your prelims!" and "you cannot watch tv and study at the same time. nothing good will get into it."
true. abstained from tv for the rest of the days to chinese to my best of my ability.
come on! dun slip out of the race.
continue.
you can still catch up.
i am gonna stay clear from any distractions.
t.v., computer, radio.
just face the books.
---
still managed to catch the finale of american idol 3.
'miss ducky' fantasia barrino won the title.
blah. 'miss piggy' diana degarmo didn't get it, but she is still damn good! for a 16 yr old dat is..
the finale also saw the 12 finalists. all back on the stage.
like the ensemble of 'aint no mountain higher'.
damn nice.
( '.' )
fun though but it was hard.
some freaking ppl gave us a hard time.
one who actually said "can u see i'm doing work?" yea sure thing, but pls be more courteous even if u aren't interested.. ann got scolded off by dat very same
idiotic person.
some were cool. one actually asked shehnas to say it again bcoz she was away, though not interested, but pure intention to listen.
ex-amksians came to help. asked their friends and stuff.
first to ask was me, but the grp were quite undecided so forget it. in the end they paid ann the $$$..
there went my first deal.
anyway sold little from there. so went to nearby the sch's market and i finally officially sold my first ticket to a family. packed up and went to mac to eat. den went council rm to chill.
though the 'O's were coming, still little pressure felt..
---
ptc was later at night. blah it was bad.
dropped alot. mrs chung kept repeating "4 more months to your prelims!" and "you cannot watch tv and study at the same time. nothing good will get into it."
true. abstained from tv for the rest of the days to chinese to my best of my ability.
come on! dun slip out of the race.
continue.
you can still catch up.
i am gonna stay clear from any distractions.
t.v., computer, radio.
just face the books.
---
still managed to catch the finale of american idol 3.
'miss ducky' fantasia barrino won the title.
blah. 'miss piggy' diana degarmo didn't get it, but she is still damn good! for a 16 yr old dat is..
the finale also saw the 12 finalists. all back on the stage.
like the ensemble of 'aint no mountain higher'.
damn nice.
( '.' )
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
memories with pizza
today is the last day of school.
like duh.. was abit out of sorts with the happenings.
spent the last 2 periods @ the council room with most current senior exco talking, discussing, and definitely gossiping. gave the excuse of wanting to clean the room. some were really cleaning the room [me & geraldine :S], playing ball [hock & karthi], writing [mich & shehnas] and lazing [ann!]..
had fun * sure thing!
will miss such quirky and chirpy conversations with them.. hehe. plan to haf a bbq @ michelle's house soon.. after 'O' level chinese. or maybe go ms ng's house once more, last time..
---
managed to find company with buddies:
joanne, grace and joshua.
waited for one another. josh for his school service for late-coming, joanne for her meeting with principal regarding results.. practically me and grace were waiting and talking.
'argued' over where to eat and stuffs. as usual, me and joanne were the anything-also-can-attitude while josh and grace fighting over going to pizza hut.
reminds me of the usual thing.. once came to my house for project, den dunnoe why grace and josh lock me and jo out of my very own rm! blehx acted angry and stuffs. always like dat-
me & joanne VS. joshua & grace
well, went pizza in the end. saw charlotte, cheehian and huifang there, and 4/4 grp.. sat away and ate and talked. actually more of me, jo and grace talking. josh walked here and there.. in the end left without him.. not our fault. has always been like this. dunnoe since when.
:: memories ::
faded ones dat came back suddenly.
once mentioned and remembered.
for it has always been there-
somewhere.
waiting to be found and felt.
and engraved deep in our hearts.
* they live on..
forever
unless if one is brainwashed.
forgotten and not forgiven.
when we left, there was a light drizzle.
light raindrops that washed away bad memories.
but brought back the happy, funny ones.
those good times that friends spent together.
when we were in secondary two, we once said that it will be funny if we go to diff classes.
which so coincidentially,
happened.
happened for a reason maybe?
when we walked to our destination, i could not help but feel the difference present. though grace said that we didn't change much..
still there was.
and felt.
like duh.. was abit out of sorts with the happenings.
spent the last 2 periods @ the council room with most current senior exco talking, discussing, and definitely gossiping. gave the excuse of wanting to clean the room. some were really cleaning the room [me & geraldine :S], playing ball [hock & karthi], writing [mich & shehnas] and lazing [ann!]..
had fun * sure thing!
will miss such quirky and chirpy conversations with them.. hehe. plan to haf a bbq @ michelle's house soon.. after 'O' level chinese. or maybe go ms ng's house once more, last time..
---
managed to find company with buddies:
joanne, grace and joshua.
waited for one another. josh for his school service for late-coming, joanne for her meeting with principal regarding results.. practically me and grace were waiting and talking.
'argued' over where to eat and stuffs. as usual, me and joanne were the anything-also-can-attitude while josh and grace fighting over going to pizza hut.
reminds me of the usual thing.. once came to my house for project, den dunnoe why grace and josh lock me and jo out of my very own rm! blehx acted angry and stuffs. always like dat-
me & joanne VS. joshua & grace
well, went pizza in the end. saw charlotte, cheehian and huifang there, and 4/4 grp.. sat away and ate and talked. actually more of me, jo and grace talking. josh walked here and there.. in the end left without him.. not our fault. has always been like this. dunnoe since when.
:: memories ::
faded ones dat came back suddenly.
once mentioned and remembered.
for it has always been there-
somewhere.
waiting to be found and felt.
and engraved deep in our hearts.
* they live on..
unless if one is brainwashed.
forgotten and not forgiven.
when we left, there was a light drizzle.
light raindrops that washed away bad memories.
but brought back the happy, funny ones.
those good times that friends spent together.
when we were in secondary two, we once said that it will be funny if we go to diff classes.
which so coincidentially,
happened.
happened for a reason maybe?
when we walked to our destination, i could not help but feel the difference present. though grace said that we didn't change much..
still there was.
and felt.
to councillors regarding the recent spat of incidents..
this is a very hard time. i myself dun wish for this commotion to happen. but since it has, i hope that you all will view it rationally and leave the matter behind us. afterall, you all will be the seniors the coming 4th council board. the juniors will look up to you all.
presidency, though is democratic, but this time the vp interviewed them one-on-one. i dunnoe wad happened in there. during the exco meeting, ms ng came in with the results from mdm cheong. i dun tink there is any biasness or wadever. not siding anyone, but just saying wad i noe. no doubt that yuru is capable, but that was the decision made, so accept it to the best. try giving soonheng a chance or wadsoever.
by the way, president or vice-president, there isn't much difference. the name may be, but what we do is typically alike. who bothers about the post. it's all in the name. me and lianghock didn't have much trouble working together. the main and most important thing is that we were in the exco with a common aim.
to hope to make the council board better.
not sure if we have done so, up to you to decide.
the exco has other ppl. confide in them if you really cannot stand anything. the teachers aren't as unreasonable as they seem. they were just really really disappointed and frustrated to know that this is happening. even most of the current exco find it saddening to know that this actually took place before our well-deserved break. we just want to step down peacefully and properly with no worries. we are still very unclear of why and how it has happened, but we just found the whole thing very unbelievable and too sudden, as it has never happened before in our years of being in the council board.
i started council when i was in sec 1. and if you ask me, i will never ever regret any moment being in it. at least it brought me a different feel to school. joining exco even made things more interesting. the student council board has become part of secondary school life to me so much, so much that i fear i will breakdown [as in cry :x] during the coming investiture [hope i won't].. *nervous lauf*
what i want to say is that i don't want to see the student council board crumbling. after the years of building it up to what it has become [even though some of you all may not enjoy being in it], i don't wish to see all our efforts go down to waste. hate me for all i care, but i hope the student council board will still gain your support. anyway it is just another year more, so make the most out of it.
it feels weird without the tie around my neck anymore to me. the learning experience, the satisfaction, the joy of knowing that secondary school life indeed will be one of my best memories, is what makes the student council board so significant.
that is why the student council board rocks!
this is a very hard time. i myself dun wish for this commotion to happen. but since it has, i hope that you all will view it rationally and leave the matter behind us. afterall, you all will be the seniors the coming 4th council board. the juniors will look up to you all.
presidency, though is democratic, but this time the vp interviewed them one-on-one. i dunnoe wad happened in there. during the exco meeting, ms ng came in with the results from mdm cheong. i dun tink there is any biasness or wadever. not siding anyone, but just saying wad i noe. no doubt that yuru is capable, but that was the decision made, so accept it to the best. try giving soonheng a chance or wadsoever.
by the way, president or vice-president, there isn't much difference. the name may be, but what we do is typically alike. who bothers about the post. it's all in the name. me and lianghock didn't have much trouble working together. the main and most important thing is that we were in the exco with a common aim.
to hope to make the council board better.
not sure if we have done so, up to you to decide.
the exco has other ppl. confide in them if you really cannot stand anything. the teachers aren't as unreasonable as they seem. they were just really really disappointed and frustrated to know that this is happening. even most of the current exco find it saddening to know that this actually took place before our well-deserved break. we just want to step down peacefully and properly with no worries. we are still very unclear of why and how it has happened, but we just found the whole thing very unbelievable and too sudden, as it has never happened before in our years of being in the council board.
i started council when i was in sec 1. and if you ask me, i will never ever regret any moment being in it. at least it brought me a different feel to school. joining exco even made things more interesting. the student council board has become part of secondary school life to me so much, so much that i fear i will breakdown [as in cry :x] during the coming investiture [hope i won't].. *nervous lauf*
what i want to say is that i don't want to see the student council board crumbling. after the years of building it up to what it has become [even though some of you all may not enjoy being in it], i don't wish to see all our efforts go down to waste. hate me for all i care, but i hope the student council board will still gain your support. anyway it is just another year more, so make the most out of it.
it feels weird without the tie around my neck anymore to me. the learning experience, the satisfaction, the joy of knowing that secondary school life indeed will be one of my best memories, is what makes the student council board so significant.
that is why the student council board rocks!
arrrgghH! DAMN!
the student council exco 2004/2005 results came out on monday.
president soonheng
vice-president yuru
secretary eileen
treasurer hanzong
council-welfare kweegek, jialing
pupil-welfare thulin, meiyan
public-relations merrill, munyee
social-&-recreation jasmine, weixun
had a meeting with them.. while waiting and stuffs, the current exco had fun. talked, gossiped, laughed.. have sorta grown together already. decided to go anderson junior college together tmr to sell carnival tickets and take it as a last duty to do as exco together. lolx.
something bad/saddening/depressing/angry/worrying/irritating thing happened yesterday too.. sort of ended today, i hope. it was regarding the results. opposition.
a strike in a way.
chaos. never had such stuffs happened before. so immature. so many of them. alot of unexpected ppl involved. totally freaking dumbfounded.
pls, beg, think rationally next time.
hard time for the new exco, current exco, and graduating councillors. so worrying. 'O' levels coming and yet cannot give us peace. must come up with some crap like dat. bullshit! how are we ever gonna step down properly? made me so low throughout. so depressing. no mood to study for chinese. gagagaga!!!
~!@#$%^&*()_+
crap
let the matter rest.
thank you very much.
president soonheng
vice-president yuru
secretary eileen
treasurer hanzong
council-welfare kweegek, jialing
pupil-welfare thulin, meiyan
public-relations merrill, munyee
social-&-recreation jasmine, weixun
had a meeting with them.. while waiting and stuffs, the current exco had fun. talked, gossiped, laughed.. have sorta grown together already. decided to go anderson junior college together tmr to sell carnival tickets and take it as a last duty to do as exco together. lolx.
something bad/saddening/depressing/angry/worrying/irritating thing happened yesterday too.. sort of ended today, i hope. it was regarding the results. opposition.
a strike in a way.
chaos. never had such stuffs happened before. so immature. so many of them. alot of unexpected ppl involved. totally freaking dumbfounded.
pls, beg, think rationally next time.
hard time for the new exco, current exco, and graduating councillors. so worrying. 'O' levels coming and yet cannot give us peace. must come up with some crap like dat. bullshit! how are we ever gonna step down properly? made me so low throughout. so depressing. no mood to study for chinese. gagagaga!!!
~!@#$%^&*()_+
crap
let the matter rest.
thank you very much.
high five -
the high five awards results are out!
received the letter on monday. was kindda nervous beforehand so didn't want to immediately open it.
but well i got it! yiipppyy!!!
next friday is the award presentation @ yck grassroots club. must wear school blazer! den early june there is the pre-departure camp @ nacli again! fun. we are goin to xiamen, china, for the overseas exchange programme! cool!
hmmm but quite undecided whether i shld go for it though. hack, leave till later to decide..
get on with life first..
received the letter on monday. was kindda nervous beforehand so didn't want to immediately open it.
but well i got it! yiipppyy!!!
next friday is the award presentation @ yck grassroots club. must wear school blazer! den early june there is the pre-departure camp @ nacli again! fun. we are goin to xiamen, china, for the overseas exchange programme! cool!
hmmm but quite undecided whether i shld go for it though. hack, leave till later to decide..
get on with life first..
slurrrp!
drama fund raising was held the past 2 days.. we sold ice popsicles during recess and after school.. the ppl on duty were talking and eating more den getting ppl to buy them.. and yes, of course we paid! i ate 2-3 on the first day, and 5 on the second day. hehehex. made quite abit [need to use them as funds for silver jubilee and next yr syf is there still is enough]..
most drama members went for today's lord of the rings exhibition @ the science center.. wanted to go, if not for chinese 'O' levels..
gonna miss drama. the seniors sort of stepped down already. haf not been told to go for meetings or anything.. haix.
countdown to chinese 'O' levels: 5 days
kempatei!
most drama members went for today's lord of the rings exhibition @ the science center.. wanted to go, if not for chinese 'O' levels..
gonna miss drama. the seniors sort of stepped down already. haf not been told to go for meetings or anything.. haix.
countdown to chinese 'O' levels: 5 days
kempatei!
Friday, May 21, 2004
sakit!
today is my lil' sis sweet 14 birthday!
also got michelle, dylan pak!
yesterday was karling..
happy birthday!
adui! school back to normal le..
sorta fun though. learnt new stuffs, revised the known. mid-yr exam is behind me now. mrs ismail enlightened us [she kept on telling us wads important is the 'O's which i so totally agree with].. have chinese remedials everyday after sch doing compos or functional writing. always one of the last few to finish.
mr ong made some of the boys in the class who failed pull-ups stay during recess to train every mon, wed, fri. my arm is aching now.. sakit! pain! ache!
today also another important day.
the student council exco 2004/2005 elections
boohoo.. means countdown to stepping down begins..
had it @ the ava room immediately after school.. was quite a frenzy. the present exco was like discussing about who to vote and why.. the new councillors also voted and got their student council profile to fill in.. haix. the old days.
got back the student council camp consent forms.. will be going to sentosa on one of the days.. the camp is on the last week of holidays. last council camp! :'(
me, karthi and mrs anand counted the votes.. will not comment on anything now though. results will most probably be announced soon.
after chinese remedials went to the art terrace and made vases for MPS souvenirs.
today biology lesson was fun and funny. mrs rama brought condoms to the class for contraceptions topic.. told us how hard it was for her to go to the counter and say she wants one box of it.. lolx!
anyway each row had a packet and we opened it. oily- lubricant, thint. read the instructions aloud to the class.. funny. ryan opened it to the maximum length and blew into it.. karthi did the same thing and tied it up..
joseph blew it up like a balloon but it did not burst.. was passed around the class.. joseph later drew a smiley face on it. recess it somehow got over to 4/2 and den to 4/3.. derek and kenneth was caught playing with it at the corridor by mr voo.. den joseph called out during ss lesson.. kekeke. lolx.
mandy, ryan, karthi, joseph, maha: huge response through the period.
better get off to bed now.. tmr goin for cousin anna's r.o.m day.. must get up early..
countdown to chinese 'O' levels: 10 days
kempatei!
also got michelle, dylan pak!
yesterday was karling..
happy birthday!
adui! school back to normal le..
sorta fun though. learnt new stuffs, revised the known. mid-yr exam is behind me now. mrs ismail enlightened us [she kept on telling us wads important is the 'O's which i so totally agree with].. have chinese remedials everyday after sch doing compos or functional writing. always one of the last few to finish.
mr ong made some of the boys in the class who failed pull-ups stay during recess to train every mon, wed, fri. my arm is aching now.. sakit! pain! ache!
today also another important day.
the student council exco 2004/2005 elections
boohoo.. means countdown to stepping down begins..
had it @ the ava room immediately after school.. was quite a frenzy. the present exco was like discussing about who to vote and why.. the new councillors also voted and got their student council profile to fill in.. haix. the old days.
got back the student council camp consent forms.. will be going to sentosa on one of the days.. the camp is on the last week of holidays. last council camp! :'(
me, karthi and mrs anand counted the votes.. will not comment on anything now though. results will most probably be announced soon.
after chinese remedials went to the art terrace and made vases for MPS souvenirs.
today biology lesson was fun and funny. mrs rama brought condoms to the class for contraceptions topic.. told us how hard it was for her to go to the counter and say she wants one box of it.. lolx!
anyway each row had a packet and we opened it. oily- lubricant, thint. read the instructions aloud to the class.. funny. ryan opened it to the maximum length and blew into it.. karthi did the same thing and tied it up..
joseph blew it up like a balloon but it did not burst.. was passed around the class.. joseph later drew a smiley face on it. recess it somehow got over to 4/2 and den to 4/3.. derek and kenneth was caught playing with it at the corridor by mr voo.. den joseph called out during ss lesson.. kekeke. lolx.
mandy, ryan, karthi, joseph, maha: huge response through the period.
better get off to bed now.. tmr goin for cousin anna's r.o.m day.. must get up early..
countdown to chinese 'O' levels: 10 days
kempatei!
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
trip me off.
have gotten back all of my papers.. hhmm didn't do well this term.
good. ok. bad.
been pouring out over results these few days.
really, really have to pull up my socks, tighten my belt, cross my fingers..
give me inspiration
had the interview for the student council exco 2004/2005.. the lower sec wasn't too bad.. most of them are running for elections.. will be a tough one.
the upper sec was kindda disappointing, as in like there were nearly half the grp who didn't want to take on any role.. and when asked about their aspirations and why they wanted to join the council board in the first place,
most of them didn't know..
depressing
deflating
debunking
disturbing
disappointing
dishonouring
i know why i joined the student council.. because i wanted something out of normal school-life of studying, memorising, reading.
started to lose track. was just an inactive councillor, waiting.
joining exco really brought me back into the whole picture..
never regretted. for it has brought me
experiences, memories,
things to talk about, laugh about, complain about..
and maybe this is more than what life is about
* there's gotta be more to life *
good. ok. bad.
been pouring out over results these few days.
really, really have to pull up my socks, tighten my belt, cross my fingers..
give me inspiration
had the interview for the student council exco 2004/2005.. the lower sec wasn't too bad.. most of them are running for elections.. will be a tough one.
the upper sec was kindda disappointing, as in like there were nearly half the grp who didn't want to take on any role.. and when asked about their aspirations and why they wanted to join the council board in the first place,
most of them didn't know..
depressing
deflating
debunking
disturbing
disappointing
dishonouring
i know why i joined the student council.. because i wanted something out of normal school-life of studying, memorising, reading.
started to lose track. was just an inactive councillor, waiting.
joining exco really brought me back into the whole picture..
never regretted. for it has brought me
experiences, memories,
things to talk about, laugh about, complain about..
and maybe this is more than what life is about
* there's gotta be more to life *
"'Til I Get Over You" - Michelle Branch
Everytime I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do, oh
You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue, oh
We both know
That we want it
That we both know
You left me no.. choice
You just bring me down
So I'm counting the tears
'Til I get over you
Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like, ohh
To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never tried, oh
We both know
We can't change it
But we both know
We'll just have to face it
You just bring me down
So I'm counting the tears
'Til I get over you
If only I could give you up
Would I want to let you off
Of this soapbox baby?
We both know
That we want it
But we both know
You left me no choice
You just bring me down, oh
So I'm counting the tears
'Til I get over you, oh
Ohh
We both know
That I'm not over you
Lalalalala oh
I'm not over you
Everytime I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do, oh
You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue, oh
We both know
That we want it
That we both know
You left me no.. choice
You just bring me down
So I'm counting the tears
'Til I get over you
Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like, ohh
To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never tried, oh
We both know
We can't change it
But we both know
We'll just have to face it
You just bring me down
So I'm counting the tears
'Til I get over you
If only I could give you up
Would I want to let you off
Of this soapbox baby?
We both know
That we want it
But we both know
You left me no choice
You just bring me down, oh
So I'm counting the tears
'Til I get over you, oh
Ohh
We both know
That I'm not over you
Lalalalala oh
I'm not over you
Monday, May 17, 2004
mixed feelings
it has not been today since i realised i am in sec 4 level now. it has been a while in this stressing final year of the school..
but hey, to really understand that you have actually seen 3 years plus of changes in yourself or the environment, that is a hard fact to accept.
dunnoe if it's because of grades, or that i am in my final year in amkss [it's not as though i really love the school, more that i will miss the people who made school-life interesting].. or it's just a sudden eat-into-my brain scenarios where feelings just overwhelm me.
hard to believe, but true.
been very emotional lately.
sometimes when i laugh i dun even noe if its because i am happy or sad.. it just seem like on the surface everything is fine, but actually internally,
feelings are clashing, emotions are revolting
memories keeps flooding back.. memories of the past, or memories that may not have happened, but just feels so [real].
wake me up from the inside,
then i can see my true self..
but hey, to really understand that you have actually seen 3 years plus of changes in yourself or the environment, that is a hard fact to accept.
dunnoe if it's because of grades, or that i am in my final year in amkss [it's not as though i really love the school, more that i will miss the people who made school-life interesting].. or it's just a sudden eat-into-my brain scenarios where feelings just overwhelm me.
hard to believe, but true.
been very emotional lately.
sometimes when i laugh i dun even noe if its because i am happy or sad.. it just seem like on the surface everything is fine, but actually internally,
feelings are clashing, emotions are revolting
memories keeps flooding back.. memories of the past, or memories that may not have happened, but just feels so [real].
wake me up from the inside,
then i can see my true self..
got the list of nominees for the student council board exco 2004/2005.. we have 8 sec 2s and 16 sec 3s.. alot from last yr..
wads different from last yr is that they won't be voting for exco positions.. instead the ppl making it into exco would be chosen after going through interviews.. hhmmm.
sec 2s:
[meiyan] [munyee] [weixun] [jialing] [brandon] [wenjia] [yanping] [aravindhan]
sec 3s:
[yuru] [kweegek] [cuishan] [thulin] [yihoong] [gary] [edward] [hanzong] [jasmine] [sarah] [starshea] [merrill] [soonheng] [nurain] [yile] [eileen]
gosh i still rmb clearly the interview day for exco.. me, mich, geraldine and ann were in a midst of discussion of whether to agree to wanting to be exco. nerve-recking!
now a year.. have we done wad we promised to do? that is not for us to say.. but what i can say is that we sure damn had fun being in exco.. definitely learnt many stuffs from the gang.
a matter of time only before we step down!
wads different from last yr is that they won't be voting for exco positions.. instead the ppl making it into exco would be chosen after going through interviews.. hhmmm.
sec 2s:
[meiyan] [munyee] [weixun] [jialing] [brandon] [wenjia] [yanping] [aravindhan]
sec 3s:
[yuru] [kweegek] [cuishan] [thulin] [yihoong] [gary] [edward] [hanzong] [jasmine] [sarah] [starshea] [merrill] [soonheng] [nurain] [yile] [eileen]
gosh i still rmb clearly the interview day for exco.. me, mich, geraldine and ann were in a midst of discussion of whether to agree to wanting to be exco. nerve-recking!
now a year.. have we done wad we promised to do? that is not for us to say.. but what i can say is that we sure damn had fun being in exco.. definitely learnt many stuffs from the gang.
a matter of time only before we step down!
get a grip
today school was a whirl.
was on the verge of breakdown [or haf i already brokedown?]. got most of the remaining papers back and wad can i say?
nothing
silence says it all..
emaths on the whole was *ahem*.. !@#$^&*() so was physics(2) and chemistry.. practical for physics and chemistry wasn't too bad.
chinese must have been the best.
checking other papers tmr..
[cross my fingers!]
was kinda emotionally and mentally low today. out of sorts.. me and sheryl were like calculating our L1R5 and letting ourselves be engulfed by depression..
ohmygod . diedie . cham
must let the steam, the frustration out. maybe crying or shouting out would be good. at least better den keeping the stress and sadness to yourself that could end up into suicidal thoughts or madness. maybe i should end up crying tonight and put the whole thing behind me.
maybe i should just put my heart and soul into working with a heart and soul to get what i wish and want.
it's always the same thing about working hard and starting early instead of last minute cramming. but all these talk and no actions. it's crap.
shld just stand up and fight for wad i want.
it's better den doing nothing.
try, at least.
try, i must.
was on the verge of breakdown [or haf i already brokedown?]. got most of the remaining papers back and wad can i say?
nothing
silence says it all..
emaths on the whole was *ahem*.. !@#$^&*() so was physics(2) and chemistry.. practical for physics and chemistry wasn't too bad.
chinese must have been the best.
checking other papers tmr..
[cross my fingers!]
was kinda emotionally and mentally low today. out of sorts.. me and sheryl were like calculating our L1R5 and letting ourselves be engulfed by depression..
ohmygod . diedie . cham
must let the steam, the frustration out. maybe crying or shouting out would be good. at least better den keeping the stress and sadness to yourself that could end up into suicidal thoughts or madness. maybe i should end up crying tonight and put the whole thing behind me.
maybe i should just put my heart and soul into working with a heart and soul to get what i wish and want.
it's always the same thing about working hard and starting early instead of last minute cramming. but all these talk and no actions. it's crap.
shld just stand up and fight for wad i want.
it's better den doing nothing.
try, at least.
try, i must.
Sunday, May 16, 2004
hmmm finally went out yesterday.
didn't do much but walked up and down orchard road aimlessly. planned to catch a movie, but boy was cineleisure crowded. nearly everywhere was.. the show was late anyway. so skipped it..
met my parents later and went for dinner at novena. went home early.
practically another boring day.
at least better den rotting at home..
didn't do much but walked up and down orchard road aimlessly. planned to catch a movie, but boy was cineleisure crowded. nearly everywhere was.. the show was late anyway. so skipped it..
met my parents later and went for dinner at novena. went home early.
practically another boring day.
at least better den rotting at home..
Friday, May 14, 2004
loneliness.
is it a feeling of persisting emptiness?
or just another unwanted, meaningless term to arouse the curiosity and bewilderment of minds?
sometimes that weird sensation surfaces.
unknown instantly,
but slowly spreading its grip over you.
and when you discover it,
you have already fallen prey to it.
and what do you feel?
or rather what do you sense?
numb
nothing but numbness, emptiness,
loneliness.
so, there is no way to properly define this
weird sensation, emotion, feeling?
loneliness solves the unknown.
everything happens for a reason.
everyone lives for a purpose.
so will you *
is it a feeling of persisting emptiness?
or just another unwanted, meaningless term to arouse the curiosity and bewilderment of minds?
sometimes that weird sensation surfaces.
unknown instantly,
but slowly spreading its grip over you.
and when you discover it,
you have already fallen prey to it.
and what do you feel?
or rather what do you sense?
numb
nothing but numbness, emptiness,
loneliness.
so, there is no way to properly define this
weird sensation, emotion, feeling?
loneliness solves the unknown.
everything happens for a reason.
everyone lives for a purpose.
so will you *
"The Reason" - Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
marking numbers
day 1 after exams.
though it feels different,
it definitely ain't different.
checking of papers end up with the same type of mixed feelings when conquering exams.
nervousness as before doing the paper.
sadness as after doing the paper and realising foolish mistakes.
the same cycle.
why, amaths(1) wasn't dat bad until amaths(2) which totally brought me down from high up.
den english(2), another heartache. i'm preparing myself for english(1), after mrs chung comments which i found so true.
physics practical was good, physics(1) was bad.
total contradiction.
well, embracing myself for more
action-packed paper-checking days.
this is the mid-yr exams so need not get so uptight yea?
the marks are just numbers anyway.
numbers that can change my life.. arrrgghh.
just strive better for prelims, 'O's or wadever..
though it feels different,
it definitely ain't different.
checking of papers end up with the same type of mixed feelings when conquering exams.
nervousness as before doing the paper.
sadness as after doing the paper and realising foolish mistakes.
the same cycle.
why, amaths(1) wasn't dat bad until amaths(2) which totally brought me down from high up.
den english(2), another heartache. i'm preparing myself for english(1), after mrs chung comments which i found so true.
physics practical was good, physics(1) was bad.
total contradiction.
well, embracing myself for more
action-packed paper-checking days.
this is the mid-yr exams so need not get so uptight yea?
the marks are just numbers anyway.
numbers that can change my life.. arrrgghh.
just strive better for prelims, 'O's or wadever..
"Someone Like Me" - Atomic Kittens
Don't let your head rule you heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
I know Its hard when you're feeling down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes but doesn't everybody
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
We know the story so far
(what you want and who you are)
What you want and who you are (Free)
Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree
With someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
Someone like me
Don't let your head rule you heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
I know Its hard when you're feeling down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes but doesn't everybody
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
We know the story so far
(what you want and who you are)
What you want and who you are (Free)
Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree
With someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
Someone like me
Thursday, May 13, 2004
see differently.
new layout i got here.
thought it was time for a change after helping my sis with her blog.
changed the previous big box thingy to smaller, more compact spaces while managing to include all the previous contents..
black, grey and white. simple.
( '.' )
thought it was time for a change after helping my sis with her blog.
changed the previous big box thingy to smaller, more compact spaces while managing to include all the previous contents..
black, grey and white. simple.
( '.' )
Monday, May 10, 2004
who lasts? (II)
survivor: all star reunion was quite a twist.
the survivor: amber.. but rob counted as the survivor too as he proposed to amber live before the results was announced. no matter how you see it now, they are both millionaires. the powerhouse couple.
other all stars were there. shii ann won a car because amber gave it to her (to redeem herself?), susan got an extreme makeover, and 2 millionaires are a couple- ethan and jenna m. jerri also lashed out at the audience for taking the game as a game and not realising that the characters are actually real emotional ppl.. which of coz got booed at and she left halfway the reunion. there's also a surprise thing, another million dollars for any of the all star players, depending on their popularity. cool.
hhmm survivor no doubt is a game, but it is real. as real as the prize money.. hehe. amazon was one of my most favourite season. wonder where the next place will be..
hell?
the survivor: amber.. but rob counted as the survivor too as he proposed to amber live before the results was announced. no matter how you see it now, they are both millionaires. the powerhouse couple.
other all stars were there. shii ann won a car because amber gave it to her (to redeem herself?), susan got an extreme makeover, and 2 millionaires are a couple- ethan and jenna m. jerri also lashed out at the audience for taking the game as a game and not realising that the characters are actually real emotional ppl.. which of coz got booed at and she left halfway the reunion. there's also a surprise thing, another million dollars for any of the all star players, depending on their popularity. cool.
hhmm survivor no doubt is a game, but it is real. as real as the prize money.. hehe. amazon was one of my most favourite season. wonder where the next place will be..
hell?
who lasts? (I)
outwit. outplay. outlast.
watched survivor: all stars just now. this season is for all players of past seasons.. few of the millionaires were in this season- richard, tina, ethan, jenna m., none of them made it to the top few..
hhmm it all boils down to the final 2 now. compared to the other seasons, i think this season is the ugliest, most backstabbing, and schemingly played season of all. based on the final tribal council..
the final 2: rob (the hated),
amber (the innocent-looking but scheming)
the jury: lex (the agitated), kathy (the emotional),
alicia (the shrewd-mouth), shii ann (the wise hermit),
big tom (the pissed-off), rupert (the goodie),
jenna l. (the caught-in-the-middle)
reality doesn't seem real enough when with survivor. just now tribal council was filled with anger, emotions, eyes-rolling, pissified faces, and an unwanted handshake.
all for survivor status and most importantly, the million dollars.
the reunion is starting. the best part of the whole series. where the confrontations take place..
nite- dunkos! ( '.' )
watched survivor: all stars just now. this season is for all players of past seasons.. few of the millionaires were in this season- richard, tina, ethan, jenna m., none of them made it to the top few..
hhmm it all boils down to the final 2 now. compared to the other seasons, i think this season is the ugliest, most backstabbing, and schemingly played season of all. based on the final tribal council..
the final 2: rob (the hated),
amber (the innocent-looking but scheming)
the jury: lex (the agitated), kathy (the emotional),
alicia (the shrewd-mouth), shii ann (the wise hermit),
big tom (the pissed-off), rupert (the goodie),
jenna l. (the caught-in-the-middle)
reality doesn't seem real enough when with survivor. just now tribal council was filled with anger, emotions, eyes-rolling, pissified faces, and an unwanted handshake.
all for survivor status and most importantly, the million dollars.
the reunion is starting. the best part of the whole series. where the confrontations take place..
nite- dunkos! ( '.' )
had 2 papers today.. another 2 more on thurs den mid-yr exams are over!!!
emaths(2): was alrite. except for certain qns which i really had no clue about.
chemistry(1): worrying. alot of tikams, practically forgot most of the solubility, chemical analysis, blah blah. cross my fingers.
yea. still haf 'O' level chinese coming up really really soon!
for now- taking time off.. before i run ahead..
live life to the fullest.
emaths(2): was alrite. except for certain qns which i really had no clue about.
chemistry(1): worrying. alot of tikams, practically forgot most of the solubility, chemical analysis, blah blah. cross my fingers.
yea. still haf 'O' level chinese coming up really really soon!
for now- taking time off.. before i run ahead..
live life to the fullest.
Friday, May 07, 2004
"Summer Sunshine" - The Corrs
Everyone's changing, I stay the same
I'm.. a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm
Just sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go..
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Now that you've left me, there's no returning
I keep comparing, you're always winning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go..
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
To sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm
The heat...
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Everyone's changing, I stay the same
I'm.. a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm
Just sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go..
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Now that you've left me, there's no returning
I keep comparing, you're always winning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go..
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
To sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm
The heat...
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
the circle of destiny-
in which life and death,
success and failure,
joy and misery,
are all part of a continuum
it just goes on..
like a soul ensconced within a circle of birth, rebirth.
the fruitful completion of a cycle in life.
be reborned.
with optimism, inspiration
to have positive reverberations
that will reach far into the future.
*don't wait for fate. it won't come to you unless you try finding it.
a two-sided force
combines to one strength.
in which life and death,
success and failure,
joy and misery,
are all part of a continuum
it just goes on..
like a soul ensconced within a circle of birth, rebirth.
the fruitful completion of a cycle in life.
be reborned.
with optimism, inspiration
to have positive reverberations
that will reach far into the future.
*don't wait for fate. it won't come to you unless you try finding it.
a two-sided force
combines to one strength.
"Everytime" - Britney Spears
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
a nervous impulse was sent from my brain after receiving 'examinations' in my ear. it went down to my spinal cord through the motor neurone. a pricky sensation went down my spine.. chihoe just sensed the creep of examinations!
ok total crap. so was the exams.
chemistry(2): not too bad.. shld b ok.
emaths(2): some tough questions. on the fence.
geography elective: the better one i hope, though i didn't really prepare much for it.
amaths(1): quite hard. feeling insecure.
physics: quite good. shld b alrite.
social studies: srce-base qns sucked. struc essay still alrite.
biology(2): as usual crap. plain rubbish.
amaths(2): hard. feeling very insecure.
always dun haf time to finish my work. always rush thru the last part of the paper. will haf blanks here and there, or halfway done questions..
late nights. the latest was practically not slping at all. mon slept at 2am, tues at 2.30am, wed studying for ss and bio took me from 8 in the night to 5 the next morning. haf to recoup my slp. hideous eye bags coming out.
chihoe is dead beat [yea- so am i] * chihoe hates exams [yea- so do i] * chihoe needs to prepare early [yea- so will i].
few more papers ahead. my brother is coming back from canada! so my parents going to kl to see him over the weekends.. we cannot !exams!. boohoo.
chinese 'o's drawing nearer!!! arrrggghhh! holidays still got a whole two long weeks of school. plus preparations for silver jubilee carnival and the last week student council camp.
* im so gonna vanish..
ok total crap. so was the exams.
chemistry(2): not too bad.. shld b ok.
emaths(2): some tough questions. on the fence.
geography elective: the better one i hope, though i didn't really prepare much for it.
amaths(1): quite hard. feeling insecure.
physics: quite good. shld b alrite.
social studies: srce-base qns sucked. struc essay still alrite.
biology(2): as usual crap. plain rubbish.
amaths(2): hard. feeling very insecure.
always dun haf time to finish my work. always rush thru the last part of the paper. will haf blanks here and there, or halfway done questions..
late nights. the latest was practically not slping at all. mon slept at 2am, tues at 2.30am, wed studying for ss and bio took me from 8 in the night to 5 the next morning. haf to recoup my slp. hideous eye bags coming out.
chihoe is dead beat [yea- so am i] * chihoe hates exams [yea- so do i] * chihoe needs to prepare early [yea- so will i].
few more papers ahead. my brother is coming back from canada! so my parents going to kl to see him over the weekends.. we cannot !exams!. boohoo.
chinese 'o's drawing nearer!!! arrrggghhh! holidays still got a whole two long weeks of school. plus preparations for silver jubilee carnival and the last week student council camp.
* im so gonna vanish..