Quiet is the New Loud
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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
say goodbye. farewell.
tmr is the day. graduation day.
the farewell assembly, where i guess all the memories and sadness and happiness and all the different different emotions will come flooding in.
there will be the sad speeches, the sad songs, the sad faces and the sad souls. well, maybe not that depressing, but i guess in a way or another everyone will feel an unbearable tug at their hearts as we walk out the school hall, with the teachers forming a passageway.
tears are inevitable tmr!
unknowingly, 4 yrs have past. funny sometimes how i feel that i wan to grow older faster, but now when i'm going on to my next phase of journey, i actually feel reluctant and cannot bear to let go of this teenhood thing. coz it means parting with friends, with memories..
in sec 1, i'm like "ok, who bothers. i still have a long way ahead in amkss.. so i can just go with the flow and chill."
in sec 2, i'm like "cool, another yr and no more just a junior. but still long before i graduate."
in sec 3, i'm like "hooray, long pants! i'm a senior senior! new subjects, new friends. but i miss my sec 1 & 2 yr.. stress with so many stuffs!"
in sec 4, i'm like "ooops. so fast? u sure? i'm about to graduate? with 'O's on the way? damn, hard to accept!"
at times i really hate going to school.
but den thinking, wherelse but school?
it's like slowly, i started to love schooling, especially meeting all the great friends, teachers, and then having to mug and pull my hair during exam periods.
despite having stress and homework, tests, exams, activites, i find myself accepting school-life to be like that. coz it was through such stuffs that i managed to grow and change.
memories...
1/1 2001:
rmb myself sitting in the sch hall wif ppl i barely know.
rmb myself being a little kid learning the ropes of becoming a secondary school student.
rmb trying to get use wif more hmwk, tests..
rmb myself catching a movie wif new friends (grace, joanne, joshua, pamy) for the first time.
rmb watching the school's first musical in awe.
rmb joining drama and student council.
2/1 2002:
rmb moving to a new building.
rmb spending time wif grace, joanne, yixuan doing our ipw in the sch's com labs till late.
rmb performing in my first stage play during Drama Nite in the opening scene being the kinder boy who felt sorry for bullying a tortoise at scgs.
rmb overly flooding ms ng's inbox wif cleo about stress and math wif long emails.
rmb watching my friends play 'diexian' in class asking about our future sec 3 classes.
rmb deciding where to go from then.
rmb a teary-eyed me on the last da of sch.
3/1 2003:
rmb coming to a class i felt lonely in and missing 2/1.
rmb being my sis's class 1/3's orientation-group-leader.
rmb the fun time wif 3/1 at the sec 3 adventure camp.
rmb getting to know ppl like cleo, shinye, maha, jesmine, joseph, ryan better and calling ourselves the 'gundoo club' and going out together.
rmb going to maha's house playing 'truth or dare'.
rmb going to joseph's house playing pool and swimming, losing my nokia 7210 in the process.
rmb sitting outside the student council rm wif michelle, geraldine, kianann discussing if we shld run for student council exco elections.
rmb taking over the helms of student council & drama.
rmb performing the lead role at the drama syf judging.
rmb particiapting at NOMAD at scgs.
rmb doing duty at farewell assembly 2003 and grad nite 2003 and realising it will be our turn soon.
4/1 2004:
rmb feeling the pressure of being a sec 4 student.
rmb having to mug and still do badly.
rmb staying late and having fun in sch at the music rm having to build a maze out of scrap cardboards that we carried to sch from far away for our Haunted House.
rmb having a blast at the Silver Jubilee Carnival.
rmb coming in tops for games stall.
rmb stepping down from student council with a totally awesome gang of ppl who put up such a great dance which ended in cheers and tears.
rmb having a wonderful time at drama's farewell party.
rmb baking cookies wif cleo, shinye, jiayu, yixuan for teachers' day and sitting in front of the oven crapping as we await our masterpiece.
rmb catching movies, taking neoprints, going bowling wif buddies like ryan, joseph, edwin, shaoxun, lester, keith, cleo, shinye, jiayu, yixuan.
OMG! i'm so gonna miss everyone and everything..
they made such a BIG difference to my life and i'm so totally grateful for everything. i really cannot imagine life w/o amkss and the ppl and stuffs that come together wif it. i'm thankful i got posted to amkss and stayed on, if not i would never have come to know such fanta-bulous ppl and get to go through an experience of a lifetime!
and now, it's like there will be something missing after i graduate. something that has been wif me for such a long time and not knowing about it, until there is an emptiness in the place that was once filled wif things that money cannot offer.
what does the future hold? i really wonder what will happen to me and the rest when we turn 25? will they still be alike or be different when we even get to meet one fine day.. and that is if we even still rmb each other. coz life will not be the same as before, or for anyone of us. life is just so unpredictable. will..
shinye be a loving mother or pinky-fashion designer, and still remain cute, bubbly and chatty? cleo be a model as some magazine cover girl or biologist, and still remain photogenic and vocal in english but not too much in chinese? jiayu be a banker or insurance agent, and still remain sweet, mature and cheery? yixuan be a punggol park nature conservationist, and still remain demure and all giggly? ryan be a business tycoon, and still remain bombastic? joseph be an athelete, and still remain in la-la land? edwin be a bowler or sms-er, and still remain self-conscious and funny? shaoxun be a professor or doctor, and still remain tops? keith be a national badminton shuttler, and still remain lame? lester be a top photographer, and still remain buggy but helpful?
me? i will be somewhere in canada, hoping for the best for myself and everyone else. then attend U, and surely still rmb that very fantastic mad bunch of ppl!
i have to stop. or else i will just start being all lame-O and crappy as i go on and on about life and memories, and get all touchy and emotional.
which i think shld be left for tmr..
i'm gonna cry on my graduation day.
and i will miss everybody.
the farewell assembly, where i guess all the memories and sadness and happiness and all the different different emotions will come flooding in.
there will be the sad speeches, the sad songs, the sad faces and the sad souls. well, maybe not that depressing, but i guess in a way or another everyone will feel an unbearable tug at their hearts as we walk out the school hall, with the teachers forming a passageway.
tears are inevitable tmr!
unknowingly, 4 yrs have past. funny sometimes how i feel that i wan to grow older faster, but now when i'm going on to my next phase of journey, i actually feel reluctant and cannot bear to let go of this teenhood thing. coz it means parting with friends, with memories..
in sec 1, i'm like "ok, who bothers. i still have a long way ahead in amkss.. so i can just go with the flow and chill."
in sec 2, i'm like "cool, another yr and no more just a junior. but still long before i graduate."
in sec 3, i'm like "hooray, long pants! i'm a senior senior! new subjects, new friends. but i miss my sec 1 & 2 yr.. stress with so many stuffs!"
in sec 4, i'm like "ooops. so fast? u sure? i'm about to graduate? with 'O's on the way? damn, hard to accept!"
at times i really hate going to school.
but den thinking, wherelse but school?
it's like slowly, i started to love schooling, especially meeting all the great friends, teachers, and then having to mug and pull my hair during exam periods.
despite having stress and homework, tests, exams, activites, i find myself accepting school-life to be like that. coz it was through such stuffs that i managed to grow and change.
memories...
1/1 2001:
rmb myself sitting in the sch hall wif ppl i barely know.
rmb myself being a little kid learning the ropes of becoming a secondary school student.
rmb trying to get use wif more hmwk, tests..
rmb myself catching a movie wif new friends (grace, joanne, joshua, pamy) for the first time.
rmb watching the school's first musical in awe.
rmb joining drama and student council.
2/1 2002:
rmb moving to a new building.
rmb spending time wif grace, joanne, yixuan doing our ipw in the sch's com labs till late.
rmb performing in my first stage play during Drama Nite in the opening scene being the kinder boy who felt sorry for bullying a tortoise at scgs.
rmb overly flooding ms ng's inbox wif cleo about stress and math wif long emails.
rmb watching my friends play 'diexian' in class asking about our future sec 3 classes.
rmb deciding where to go from then.
rmb a teary-eyed me on the last da of sch.
3/1 2003:
rmb coming to a class i felt lonely in and missing 2/1.
rmb being my sis's class 1/3's orientation-group-leader.
rmb the fun time wif 3/1 at the sec 3 adventure camp.
rmb getting to know ppl like cleo, shinye, maha, jesmine, joseph, ryan better and calling ourselves the 'gundoo club' and going out together.
rmb going to maha's house playing 'truth or dare'.
rmb going to joseph's house playing pool and swimming, losing my nokia 7210 in the process.
rmb sitting outside the student council rm wif michelle, geraldine, kianann discussing if we shld run for student council exco elections.
rmb taking over the helms of student council & drama.
rmb performing the lead role at the drama syf judging.
rmb particiapting at NOMAD at scgs.
rmb doing duty at farewell assembly 2003 and grad nite 2003 and realising it will be our turn soon.
4/1 2004:
rmb feeling the pressure of being a sec 4 student.
rmb having to mug and still do badly.
rmb staying late and having fun in sch at the music rm having to build a maze out of scrap cardboards that we carried to sch from far away for our Haunted House.
rmb having a blast at the Silver Jubilee Carnival.
rmb coming in tops for games stall.
rmb stepping down from student council with a totally awesome gang of ppl who put up such a great dance which ended in cheers and tears.
rmb having a wonderful time at drama's farewell party.
rmb baking cookies wif cleo, shinye, jiayu, yixuan for teachers' day and sitting in front of the oven crapping as we await our masterpiece.
rmb catching movies, taking neoprints, going bowling wif buddies like ryan, joseph, edwin, shaoxun, lester, keith, cleo, shinye, jiayu, yixuan.
OMG! i'm so gonna miss everyone and everything..
they made such a BIG difference to my life and i'm so totally grateful for everything. i really cannot imagine life w/o amkss and the ppl and stuffs that come together wif it. i'm thankful i got posted to amkss and stayed on, if not i would never have come to know such fanta-bulous ppl and get to go through an experience of a lifetime!
and now, it's like there will be something missing after i graduate. something that has been wif me for such a long time and not knowing about it, until there is an emptiness in the place that was once filled wif things that money cannot offer.
what does the future hold? i really wonder what will happen to me and the rest when we turn 25? will they still be alike or be different when we even get to meet one fine day.. and that is if we even still rmb each other. coz life will not be the same as before, or for anyone of us. life is just so unpredictable. will..
shinye be a loving mother or pinky-fashion designer, and still remain cute, bubbly and chatty? cleo be a model as some magazine cover girl or biologist, and still remain photogenic and vocal in english but not too much in chinese? jiayu be a banker or insurance agent, and still remain sweet, mature and cheery? yixuan be a punggol park nature conservationist, and still remain demure and all giggly? ryan be a business tycoon, and still remain bombastic? joseph be an athelete, and still remain in la-la land? edwin be a bowler or sms-er, and still remain self-conscious and funny? shaoxun be a professor or doctor, and still remain tops? keith be a national badminton shuttler, and still remain lame? lester be a top photographer, and still remain buggy but helpful?
me? i will be somewhere in canada, hoping for the best for myself and everyone else. then attend U, and surely still rmb that very fantastic mad bunch of ppl!
i have to stop. or else i will just start being all lame-O and crappy as i go on and on about life and memories, and get all touchy and emotional.
which i think shld be left for tmr..
i'm gonna cry on my graduation day.
and i will miss everybody.