it has not been today since i realised i am in sec 4 level now. it has been a while in this stressing final year of the school..
but hey, to really understand that you have actually seen 3 years plus of changes in yourself or the environment, that is a hard fact to accept.

dunnoe if it's because of grades, or that i am in my final year in amkss [it's not as though i really love the school, more that i will miss the people who made school-life interesting].. or it's just a sudden eat-into-my brain scenarios where feelings just overwhelm me.
hard to believe, but true.

been very emotional lately.
sometimes when i laugh i dun even noe if its because i am happy or sad.. it just seem like on the surface everything is fine, but actually internally,
feelings are clashing, emotions are revolting

memories keeps flooding back.. memories of the past, or memories that may not have happened, but just feels so [real].

wake me up from the inside,
then i can see my true self..