"Goodbye To You" - Michelle Branch

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
And the last three years were just pretend and I said

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you'll chase the thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light, but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you, but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

totally unpredictable.. hk singer anita mui passed away very early morning today due to some lung complications while suffering from womb cancer.. saddening.. rest in peace. and now like her albums and movies are all coming into favour.. why only at this time? when lost, the value only surfaces? *thinks hard*

maybe life is about death, while death brings you back to rebirth, if one believes in that. sometimes i wonder what stands before us after death. no scientific proof to tell us where we go or end up.. do we disappear, vanish and lose all feelings? or are we like suspended in time and can only grip on to a dark and deep sleep, knowing nothing about what is going on around us? perhaps there is such thing as rebirth, the cycle of life and death.

life is short yet beautiful and meaningful..

"Wherever You Will Go" - The Calling

So lately, I've been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

the future beholds the unknown, something which man wants to know and hopes to see..

the present is another stepping stone to the horizon, a certainty of life, a forward move to looking for a better day..

the past is something that without it there will be no today, something to fall back on in times of anguish, and know that it will never disappear for it once existed..

camp handbooks are on the way. nice and colourful. only thing left is to staple them together then done! though today's session will end sorta early but dragged till 6 plus.. tired, and on top of that hmwk is not done yet. lianghock and soonheng bugging me to go sch tmr but i dun wan and dun feel like as really need to concentrate on my hmwk.

sch's starting this friday.. cannot believe how time past so quickly. seems like my holiday have been almost doing nothing, besides playing and sleeping and eating.
pig <(^(00)^)>, yea i noe.

the new year is coming too. another yr gone. i am gonna be a sec 4 and it just seem like yesterday that little me stepped into amkss.. can rmb it soo clearly. i was disgusted at first, but got to grow sorta fond of it.. coz without coming into this sch i would never have met such a great bunch of friends and company, neither would i have come into contact with such interesting daily sch happenings. well this was what i wished to have which i found it.. i hope =x. hehehe..
speaking of this reminds me of something which took place quite recently. my pri sch friend called me one night. kinda weird and was taken by surprise by dat phone call. my ex-pri sch discipline mistress, ms goh k.k., and my pri 5 form teacher, mdm chee, whom both went to nan chiau pri when my pri sch merged with townsville pri, invited us for dinner, the very next night when the phone call was made. could not make it though, pity. would have liked to meet the others. been so long since we met or talked.
pri sch days were fun.. naive, innocent us. haix. saddening to bring back all these memories at such a time where books and work have invaded my mind.. those were the days..

"The Voice Within" - Christina Aguilera

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

had a great shopping spree with my mum and sis.. my dad went somewhere and then for a 'dry swim' session. anyways, went to orchard area not expecting to end up with quite some harvest. at the same time, set eyes on certain items too. :p

went around orchard, from wisma to taka and den to far east. bought some stuffs dere and den my sis brought us to heeren where she saw this kinda dress-cum-blouse type previously when she went out with her friends.. clever of her to make use of my mum's presence. but it was gone, sad. at heeren we walked around hmv and i went to find for mich branch's albums.. saw 'hotel paper' and i though 'blah, this again'.. i saw it. right beneath was 'the spirit room'.. been finding for this album for a long time but always unavailable. wanted to buy it but thinking better not in front of my mum, so we left. went around again and back to bishan where we had dinner @ sakae sushi.. ate the steamboat tingy.. not bad and filling. den arrived back to the comforts of home!

i am worried and tensed up as i haf not done much revision or practising which i egged myself to do before the hols started. everyone is having tuition but mine haf yet to start (i wanted it to start on the 14th dec and look at the date now!). really must work hard. talked to my aunt just now on the phone and we talked about 'wad my future holds for me' stuffs. she assured me to just study hard, which i jolly well must and will! i feel the power to study in me now. gotta go before it wears out! :x

announcement: i am starting to become a LOTR fan.. really.. the Lord of the Rings trilogy is really getting to me. i haven watched the last 2 sequels yet, the Two Towers and the Return of the King.. plan to get the vcd or sumting soon. to prepare, i watched the first sequel, the Fellowship of the Ring, today.. i watched it before but that was way back so this is to sort of refresh my memory.
why addicted? well one thing is for sure is that the storyline is good. J.R.R. Tolkien really wrote it interestingly, and with emotions, personal experiences. he emphasised stuffs like friendship as seen from the friendship between Frodo and Sam, commitment and loyalty, trust and faith, courage and determination. also, the film-makers brought the whole story to life with characters, battles, sceneries and most importantly the architecture.. how i love the elvish and gondorian architecture. the cities of elvish's Rivendell to gondorian's Minas Tirith. i put some pics up below showing the white city of Minas Tirith. pure.
i have the book, or shld i say my brother has the book.. but the problem is it is in malaysia @ my aunt's house.. the last time i was in there i was too lazy to bring it to singapore as my luggage was big and bulky enough. really regret not bringing it in.. but heck.


.the capital city of Gondor, Minas Tirith.

pic taken from http://www.lordoftherings.net/

today's edusave award ceremony held @ townsville primary was sorta lame. especially the part where we had to pose for the cameramen to take shots of use waving the damn certificate plus envelope. the whole award ceremony lost its grand-ness as it was terribly messy and unorganised to say. they sped through it and the award-giving part like lasted shorter then the waiting time. i was yawning away while waiting. compared to my first yr at the ceremony, this one is quite far back.

oh yar. looks like i may not be changing hp.. so pissed off man. seems like it is not the phone with the problem but my batt. that man conned me of my $ when i bought that batt.. not just $ but my hopes of getting a new hp. i thought that my phone was the problematic case and could get a new hp (which i nearly did).. but my dad, as usual, checked the batt and.. :'( what to do, but pray that my dad will still overlook the batt problem and get me a new phone. i really dun mind paying myself but i think he will not agree to it. haiz.

talked to my brother just now.. it's around 10 in the morning his time. said he was going to hamilton to meet an ex-classmate from singapore who is now studying there too. he has to go from scarborough to downtown toronto to take another bus to hamilton.. which he said will take about 2 hrs. long way..

"All The Love In The World" - The Corrs

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than ok
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
Still I believe
I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me

And I won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore)..

i watched this show on tv this morning during christmas entitled 'Harriet the Spy'.. watched the starting before once some time back but because of tuition had to tear my eyes away from the tv. the show is a total charm- heartwarming and down-to-earth.. mainly revolves around friendship and company, truth and deception, hypocrites and true friends.

Harriet J. Welsch is the spy here.. she writes everything she sees and thinks into a notebook.. stuffs which she believes and agrees on it.. stuffs which is right from the heart. well apart from her nanny, she has other friends at sch.. few to say.. dunnoe wad names, a girl and boy.
then her nanny leaves and she is left alone. but she carries on her passion, her ms. detective and aspiring ambition to be a great author with her nanny's encouragement.
she left her private notebook open to devious eyes and every single detail Harriet wrote about is spilled. personal opinions that she wrote about her friends. her bestest of all friends turn against her. the part where her girlfriend joined the other 'bad' grp after reading short simple lines like 'will she grow up into a nutcase' really made me ponder.. can friends so easily sway and turn foe overnight? are friends really to be trusted despite the faith you have in them? who knows.
everyone in class sabotage Harriet. the loner, stranded alone nowhere without friends or her nanny is left to fend for herself. there were scenes where she cry alone in bed and that makes me.. her notebook is taken away and she fights her way back. even her last 'friend' is taken away from her..
her nanny comes and visit her, giving her tips. "apologise. even though you still believe in what you wrote, a little white lie that can make ppl feel better isn't bad.." true. if it can make a big diff, why not?
she tries but her friends dun bother. but unexpectantly they back her when she volunteered to be some kind of editor for the sch's newspaper. Harriet uses the newspaper to write her thoughts and opinions once again, this time openly apologising to everyone. success.
maybe friends are trustworthy afterall.. maybe friends are still friends no matter what you did or said to them. maybe one is never alone, friends will be there for you. like the book 'The Little Prince', being alone is a blessing in disguise- you have friends supporting you from behind, and you know it. you can feel it..

"jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way. oh what fun it is to ride in a one horse open sleigh, hey!.."

"this the season to be jolly, tralalalala-lalalala.."

christmas is here and so is the spirit of sharing. i dun really feel the high climax and cheery atmosphere here in singapore, hmm maybe due to the fact that i seldom celebrate christmas. white snow, coats and mufflers.. i always associate these things with christmas but i dun see it in singapore. this year's christmas seem dead to me.. nothing much interesting except for the bargains and sales everywhere.

monday went back to sch to paint the door.. now it is just fabulous! the graffiti and funky type of colour used really brought out the live of the council board.. but some were saying that it looks like a nursery area (which i do not really object too..) while others were saying in sux. really, those ppl shld retract their words as it isn't easy to come up with something of such standard. hehex.

i'm now working on a new layout for my new blog.. modified a template that i got from the web to the way i like. coming up soon (next mnth probably)

sch is starting next friday.. how time past so fast.. was like yesterday when the hols started. quite eager to get back to sch as boredom is getting to me, though hmwk is not yet done!!!!!!

"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)" - Green Day

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right
I hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right
I hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right
I hope you had the time of your life

came back from j.b. had this one day trip there for my passport (settled!) but turned out to be a shopping spree.. bought quite some stuffs. it is way cheap there, food and clothes. we first ate before going around shops like b.u.m. equip and diesel, ocean pac, padini, u2, blah blah. while inching our way home, had some snacks. stopped at woodlands to have dinner and then came home.

yesterday me and my sis went to zongxing's church- city harvest all the way @ jurong west. xinhui, geraldine, karthi and others went there too. must say it is definitely not like a traditional church.. it has an auditorium like those concert type which was soo freaking cold (thnk god i was wearing a long sleeved shirt!). the start was singing songs of christ and stuff. everyone was so enthu.. i felt sort of awkward as i didn't noe wad to do.. lucky i wasn't the only one feeling that way. den it was the real concert when sun ho appeared.. it was some sort of like her mini concert. everyone was cheering and waving their lightsticks in the dark. then there was this part when sun ho started talking about her past which made everyone so emotional. had this prayer session at the end (*amen*). that was nearly all. i dun think i would like going a second time as it was quite hectic.. hehex. but it was an experience undergone..

i have yet to finish my hmwk.. i have been going out (tmr and the following day too!) so really need to buck up.. this is so exasperating! gonna suffocate or choke over my hmwk one day. LoL..

destiny. the power of fate. how one perceive it changes the way one live life.

meant for you? or carved by you?

a person who believes destiny is meant for one, believes that this is the way the path of life is for him. he ponders: "everything i do, anything surrounding me, all is meant for me". he is bestowed his life, and live life the way he should, without worries. for he believe that he is meant to live this way.

a person who believes he carves his destiny, he does just that. he ponders: "if destiny is in my hands, then i will make it what i want it to be". he makes full use of life, and live life the way he wants to, planning each step ahead. for he believes that he will not be tied down by a destined life.

to me, the first lives a free-and-easy life, while the latter who believes he is not tied down by destiny, is in fact binding himself down with plans. but i can perceive it as the latter being more down-to-earth as he knows very well what he wants to see and have in life. it depends much on the way one perceive things, thinkings, idealogies, myths, religions.

it is just what your heart wants to hear and feel...

"Ordinary Day" - Vanessa Carlton

Just a day, just an ordinary day.
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.
And as he asked if I would come along
I started to realize
That everyday you find
Just what he's looking for
Like a shooting star, he shines

He said take my hand
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand?

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
You'd swear those words could heal
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine
And to know he's no stranger
For I feel I've held him for all of time

And he said take my hand
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand
In the palm of your hand

Please come with me
See what I see
Touch the stars for time will not flee
Time will not flee
And you must be

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that boy, that ordinary boy
Or was it all in my head?
Did he asked if I would come along
It all seemed so real
But as I looked to the door
I saw that boy standing there with a deal

And he said he my take my hand
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand
Right in the palm of your hand
Right in the palm of your hand

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just trying to get by
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy
But he was looking to the sky

the revamp of the exterior of the council room is near completion, well at least to me. the whole project is very 'chi li'.. been painting the walls and now the door. the door is real kewl.. it has the graffiti type of words and soon the colour will be funky and bright. the new place outside is now some sort of classy. me, michelle, weizhen and 'tween' edward were there. little edward kept on insisting on going to play bball, which of course i disallowed (why had to give in to him??? :p) when we started to pack after calling it a day, dat edward had to irritate me before we left.. he had little knowledge of how to clean his painting brush and soon the toilet and his hands were all smeared with the blue oil-based paint. used thinner to get it off and he kept on moaning 'my skin is corroding'.. he left the mess for his 'servant' me to clean up for him which my hands suffered the same fate as his.. but i managed! hehex.

me and michelle went to bishan later on. she knew of this promotion tingy going on @ j8 where the diff shops there had gd deals. everyone there was squeezing for the offers (must be the christmas shopping spirit), so chaotic. we had to fish some stuffs out at least. i really wanted to buy this b.u.m. equipment long-sleeved shirt which was on offer due to the closing down sale, but too bad, was the last piece and the size was 'L'.. too big for me, definitely.. went around other shops from p.o.a. to 37 degrees to converse.. had this feeling to splurge but if i bought shirts and wore them in front of my parents, they are sure to nag about being too rich and stuffs, u noe.. also went to music stores and got a few cds (a harvest at least).. michelle got a top (she took such a quick time to purchase it).. really regret not getting any clothes. maybe tmr when me, my sis and my mum do shopping (my dad has OT~). will den leave for zongxing's church for some kind of concert stuff.. had to make time to go as turned him down a few times when he asked me back then.. looks like another day OUT and NOT doing any hmwk! haiz have to get it going or else i will be dead meat^ besides my results ain't gd to not bother.

damn it.. i am in so muhc trouble.. my malaysia passport EXPIRED!!! and it expired like a few days back on the 15th dec which is the monday.. and to think my family was planning to go in to malaysia to see our aunts this holidays.. i didn't even rmb when my passport was expiring and now it has!

ohh god.. my father is talking to my aunt on the phone now discussing how things should work out.. and i am here blogging.. better go out and listen to what they say as it does afterall concern me.. *cross my fingers that nothing goes wrong*

"I'm With You" - Avril Lavigne

I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh, why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea.. yea.. yea..

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you.. oh
I'm with you..
I'm with you..

hey morning there.. i woke up at 9 today *yawn* it's still early.. the sun is only getting warm and bright.. but well had to wake up to send emails to my brother.. thought i could go offline after that, but here i am still waiting: listening to perfect10's live radio which is playing westlife's 'mandy' (morning madness was on just now).. waiting as in my brother's mail acc is full and i have to wait till he comes back from his exams to clear it! his time now shld b around 9pm or so and having exams at this time is real weird for a normal kid stuck in singapore and it's education system.. i mean like why so much hmwk during the holidays! rather not have holidays and go to sch if that's the case..

well here goes again: complaining about hmwk not yet done (well i did touch much on social studies, did notes and some of the papers).. now i still have chinese and physics which is the main cause of worry.. maths is optional, BUT i will try finishing it.. no doubt i will try being hardworking (when i do, i just dun feel like being hardworking at all!)

i have yet again changed the music video.. now it is evanscence's 'my immortal'.. really cool song.. haunting, totally.. [0.o]?

gosH!!!! i am totally breathless! i came across this new phone on the web (ok i surfed for new phones) and it is just so cool! i already showed the web to my father and he was impressed by the phone too, i hope.. the phone is one of sony ericsson's new models, z600.. it is those type of flip-covers phone (i dunnoe why i have been eyeing such phones lately)..

but it has left me in a dilemma.. panasonic x70 or sony ericsson z600? the latter definitely is of more funky type of phone while the first is like those classic and classy phones for businessmen.. well i tink i will see how things go.. maybe i may get one of them.. or maybe not!

oh yar, i have also put up pics on my blog.. i noe they are not clear.. thinking of a way to solve that problem.. must ask help from my brother! i am going for dinner now.. ciao!

the flu bug is here! it is all over the world man.. fujian flu, bird flu, sars.. i just got well from a fever/cough/flu which now my sis has a very bad sore throat too.. when i was in the clinic on sunday there was a long queue.. seems like everyone is running to get their anti-flu shot.. heard dat people who go overseas have to get this jab and that young kids and the elderly is advised to too..

getting so sicky, i mean the world.. really wish it will be all up ready and living again.. so wishing health to all ppl out there so as to live.. & breathe!!!


"Breathe" - Michelle Branch

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
And its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
In saying things we never meant to say

And I take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space in between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I give you just a little time
I, wonder if you realize
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper in the dark
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

i am sick! started with a bad sore throat but soon the germs spread to the nose and all over my body.. headaches after long naps, body aches, tiredness.. i ran a fever of 37.4 degrees.. luckily im feeling much better now.. went to see a doctor who said dat my throat is real red (throat infection most probably); cannot really talk much now so just have to pen it down!!

homework still not done which worries me ALOT!!!

slept for a long long time after i came home on the wednesday.. felt as though i was about to break down any moment.. i had this feeling to leave the camp in the middle of the night to come home especially after some, well how shld i put it, erm little misunderstandings took place..

on the tuesday nite the EXCO work real real hard to complete printing the OGLs and SMs handbook.. had to start from typing out, printing, vetting, to photocopying.. took real long but managed to finish at about 4 plus plus.. for dat nights dinner i ate little (only a slice of pizza); just dunnoe y i couldn't stuff myself with the free food (as ms ng paid for most of our meals man!).. went back to work almost after finishing dat very slice..

we went separate ways after the work; some when for a pool game, others back to the room to watch soccer or slp.. i went to play pool den slept.. it rained heavily dat night and my sis as at girl guides camp too (she went on a night trail around singapore dat night)..

930 on thursday was the OGLs and SMs training.. we woke up late and councillors were like peering into the ava room as we woke up.. the messy hair, shabby clothings, all of us still took our own time.. the OGLs and SMs training went on OKAY i would say (not much of an interesting one, but at least there was a satisfying turnout).. when everyone left, we had our lunch and den wanted to watch a movie at the ava room before heading home (unfortunately we had to stop!) so well went home and slept!

till now, hmwk no progress- really got to work on it!

ok i am now in the teachers' workshop room with the EXCO (lianghock, kianann, geraldine, michelle, shehnas, soonheng, gary) having a discussion cum meeting.. well not really a discussion, we are having an online session and talking crap.. we will be spending 2 nights in the ava room (the camp starts from today till wednesday).. an update of today's activities: we did nothing much except paint the outside walls of the council room again.. den now after dinner looks like we will be going to play pool at school.. my gosh! this is so fun.. cant wait to know wad will happen next.. tonite will be fun! better have more of such camps man..

ohh yar.. i reformatted my com but still there is sumting wrong with the monitor.. the screen is definitely going weird.. must really change it already.. i also spotted a new phone which i liked; it is the panasonic x70 with internal-built camera and other cool features.. hope i can get that phone as my present one is also in a state of disaster!

i tink i will go do other stuffs which we are supposed to do.. adios!

i have prepared to reformat my com.. it is going bonkers.. my father said he will change my com for quite a while now but still not much action though he is thinking of doing it next mnth (so i haf decided to take action myself to try and salvage this com).. if it works den looks like the com will stay and so can the money be spent on other stuffs (like my new hp!)..

tmr is the EXCO pre-camp in school (it is for the planning of the sec 1 orientation camp).. still packing and hoping to finish by tonite.. meeting early in the morning.. i set the programme for the camp and there is alot of 'freetime' slots.. looks like we will be playing and relaxing more den doing work eh?

homework status:
[+] done my geog [scripts] (at last!)
[-] remaining ones are.. social studies [notes & scripts], chinese [reports & tests], physics [scripts], maths [practice], more geography [project], biology [notes]
* and to think schools starts in less than a month! well better go do some now and pack up!


"Powerless (Say What You Want)" - Nelly Furtado

Paint my face in your magazines
Make it look whiter than it seems
Paint me over with your dreams
Shove away my ethnicity
Burn every notion that I may have a flame inside to fight
And say just what is on my mind
Without offending your might

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
Say what you want

I saw her face outside today
Weatherworn, looking all the rage
They took her passion and her gaze and made a poster
Now it’s moccasins we sport
We take the culture and contort
Perhaps only to distort what we are hiding

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
But say what you want
Say what you want

Hey you, the one outside,
are you ever gonna get in, get in
Hey you, the one that don’t fit in,
how ya, how ya gonna get in
Hey you, the one outside,
are you ever gonna get in with your
Broken teeth, broken jaw, broken mojo
Yeah, this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

Say what you want, say what you want..
Live is too short, just for you
Think powerless, gonna do

was in school today cleaning the council room.. packed the papers-to-be-recycled; moved the old sofas away and arranged the new ones; painted the walls outside the room (yellow colour. not bad. but not completed. have patches of uneven painting and the top part not painted.).. also got the consent forms for the EXCO pre-camp next week.. can't wait for it to come..

also, today is my first job experience.. quite tiring.. it is door-to-door ice cream promotion @ toa payoh area for Walls.. did only 2 blocks with joanne and xinhui (melvin was supposed to come but he didn't in the end).. the pay not bad.. earned around $36 but split into 3 portions (the 2 girls offered to give them all to me but how could i accept???)..
'Hello. Sorry to disturb you. We are from Walls Company and we are selling ice cream at a promotion price. It is much cheaper than those sold outside. Would you like to try some?' we will go on like this every house.. some ppl didn't even bother to answer the door though they were @ home (just like my house; won't answer any promoters' call [0.o]''), while others stopped us from explaining further.. of course there were those who were kind enuf to buy from us (a lady even gave us plastic bags as the man didn't provide this time after she purchased some from us)..
the start i was so blur.. but soon got the hang.. there were many sets which costs cheaper.. i really dunnoe how both the girls manage to rmb them so clearly.. we bought some ourselves as we could not resist.. we were energetic beginning but soon became tired after going around without any sales.. later xinhui kept on egging us to be happy and that really helped.. business picked up and we were like running around coz there was not enuf time to cover every house (we managed to complete 2 blocks which are 11 storeys high with around 20 houses on one floor in about 4 hours i suppose)..
i am all worn out.. sore feet and sleepy-head.. i was in such a wrong attire (tshirt, three-quarters, track shoes, sling bag).. shldn't have brought the bag along as it was sort of in the way; shldn't have worn track shoes as it was sort of uncomfortable to me; shldn't have worn three-quarters as it was quite hot and stuffy..
well i gained valuable lessons: one thing is for sure, never totally ignore a sales-person as it is not easy to be one.. unless of course he/she looks cunning.. LoL!

this is just so fun! my brother helped me and my sis put up MVs on our blogs.. as you can see mine is Santana feat. Michelle Branch - The Game of Love.. really love this song.. dunnoe how my brother did it for me but thnx alot..


"The Game Of Love" - Santana ft. Michelle Branch

Tell me just what you want me to be
One kiss and boom you're the only one for me
So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm crying outside the door of your candy store

It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love

Is, whatever you make it to be
Sunshine set on this cold lonely sea
So please baby try and use me for what I'm good for
It ain't sayin' goodbye that's knocking down the door of your candy store

It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love

It's all in this game of love
You roll me
Control me
Console me
Please hold me
You guide me
Divide me
Into what...

(Make me feel good, yeah)

So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm dying outside the door of your loving store

It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love

It's all in this game of love
It's all in the game of love
Yeah, in the game of love

Roll me
Control me
Please hold me
(Make me feel good, yeah)

*bashed out* my legs gave way- had to wear leather shoes for Grad Nite 2003 which was like a few hours back.. it was fun (i will go into finer details later).. went totally mad but at the same time my feet were aching and had to do serious duties (ok not DAT serious)..

me, liang hock, michelle and geraldine met at bishan earlier for lunch and den headed down to city hall to meet the rest (cleo, eileen, shehnas, kian ann, nathan; jasmine, soon heng came later).. late or not we managed to finally reach The Oriental Hotel which is close to the Esplarnarde.. den played cards in a hotel room specially for us, went around the hotel taking photos, went to marina square to walk and talk..

while preparing the councillors coloured our hairs with hair sprays: mine was a funky gold colour with stripes (jasmine said i look gangsta type [0.o]?!?).. the other councillors had varieties of blue, green, red.. den had hand tattoos with glitters.. seemed like we were preparing for like some kind of concert..

the time came for the grand event.. everyone streamed in and the hotel turned upside down!!! the graduates really dressed their best with gowns or suits, styled hair-dos, jewellery and makeup.. this really made me tink wad i shld do next yr :p

then after the programs and stuff the whole 'ballroom' was turned into a disco.. it was kewl, only too much smoke! the councillors went in and turned real REAL WILD! there was liang hock stripping bit by bit; michelle jumping around; geraldine swishing her tie at the top making her look like a cowgirl; cleo, jasmine, eileen joining in the fun; me going crAzzEEee (shehnas left by then)~ den the funny part was when kian ann and soon heng entered.. the whole gang stripped both of them and it was like *gosh* stuffed light-sticks into kian ann's shirt.. in the end stopped as cowgirl had to go.. everyone went back to the room and packed up.. soon we were on our way back home..

now its like close to 3 hours since the Grad Nite.. i am feeling sleepy *yaWn* *snoOze* *snoRe* *good nite*