"Heaven (Candlelight Mix)" - DJ Sammy

Oh, thinking about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me coming back for more

Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh, once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when your feeling down
Now nothing could change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standing there by you

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh, Oh
Oh, Oh
We're in heaven

wHoo! i didn't go out today.. stayed at home doing almost nothing.. woke up late today as i slept at 3 man! i was watching 'Harry Potter and the Chambers of Secret' with my sis.. dunnoe why i would watch it again (must be too bored though got alot of homework)..

my sis went out last minute today to buy her guides shirt.. den i got her to buy the 'Smash!' CD - a compilation of many nice songs.. *we shared the cost (sort of; i paid more!) songs like 'Beyonce feat. Jay Z - Crazy In Love', 'Hilary Duff - So Yesterday', 'Santana feat. Michelle Branch - The Game of Love', 'Christina Aguilera - Beautiful', 'Michelle Branch - Are You Happy Now', 'Mandy Moore - Have A Little Faith In Me', 'Evanescence - Bring Me To Life' and many others.. there is also Wang Lee Hom's 'Not You Average Thug'..

been busy though not sure with what.. still have piles of homework stacking up.. gosh better catch up..

* go * going * gone *

ok i finally managed to change the layout.. much nicer eh? hehe so proud of myself.. or course had abit help from my bro.. wad spurred me to do it? i dunnoe.. must be the problem where i could not see my updated blog when i entered the web (only under my archives does it appear).. but the funny ting was dat other visitors to my blog could view the new layout.. funny though ain't it? had this moment where i wanted to change the web add.. in the end did not since most could view the updated version on this add.. but but but that does not mean i will not change it (dun worry i will inform the constant visitors about it!)..

today me, jason a., jason w. and pamy went to school to hang the drama banner.. it seems like we spent more time on the lunch we had.. a VERY FESTIVE & LUXURIOUS meal i must say.. we went to Jack's Place @ amk central.. had the set lunch which was relatively cheap though.. ohh yar! the waitresses and the waiters there were like giving us the 'do-you-have-the-money-to-pay' look just because we were in our school uniforms.. man so irritating! the waitress who took the bill actually counted the money in front of us.. like wad the hell.. at least the simplest respect she could show was by goin to the cashier to do dat.. nevermind them. we den went to get threads and headed off to school.. the sewing of the banner to slot in the bamboo poles were mainly done by the 'Drama Boys' (i have to say dat drama boys are more 'homely' den the girls! true!) though pamy did do.. den put it up and *drumrolls*.. FANTASTIC! after dat we went to mac opposite the school and chilled before heading home..

today i finished 'Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban'.. fast reader i must say i am! now i will just have to wait to i have the money to buy the 4th book.. cost a bomb i tink.. till now peace~

I came across this email which i found that i could relate to.. it really gives me things to ponder man.. ok so this is the adaptation of the email..


Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area.
Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Ha???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".

It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!

damn i lost control of this blog.. i dunnoe why wadever i posts or amendments i made to the template cannot be shown on my blog (it shows on the archives though?) .. <[so wads the point of writing this blog huh?]> .. well this just let me know that it is time i shld change the layout eh? especially after seeing colouful sarah ong's one.. gosh damn chio~ so wait for my new layout, k? im not sure when i will do it.. but soon i suppose..

today still went school.. a holiday without a holiday.. wednesday and thursday will also be going to school.. phhoossh really lost my freedom.. ohh yar today i went for my dental appointment in school.. not bad; only blood came oozing out once it made my gums.. felt like puking seeing those reddish substance.. well den went to the games room to chill and left my whole folder and the council file for sec 1 orientation camp there.. now i cannot even do work when i have the mood..

tomorrow is a public holiday (Hari Raya).. will wan to stay @ home and watch tv! also will wish to catch up with my homework.. im like way behind man..

an update on the progress of reading the Harry Potter series: i have finished reading 'Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets'.. now on to the 3rd book 'Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban'.. im reading in such an amazing rate.. now preparing to get the 4th book.. so ex man.. must pay myself though (my mum was kind enuf to pay for these 2 books)..

well better go get some slp.. nite~

"Superman (It's Not Easy)"- Five For Fighting

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train and
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream but
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
But it's all right
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy, or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me, inside of me
Yeah inside of me
Inside of me

I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
Only a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
And it's not easy

It's not easy to be me.


i just dunnoe why all of a sudden once i heard this song on the radio, i had this tugging feeling at my heart.. it seems to be wad my heart is saying.. 'not easy to be me'.. well at times, not always..
but thinking.. if its not easy to be me, how easy can it get to be others too? maybe i am meant to be wad i am.. its like im destined for my life.. and no one can do live this life better den me.. and dat will be wad i will do..

"Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood." -- Thomas Carlyle

yippy! i bought the next 2 books of Harry Potter yesterday @ Kinokuniya @ Takashimaya namely 'Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets' (which i have already watched the movie, but who cares?) and 'Harry Potter & the Prisoner of Azkaban' (been wanting to read this book.. Melissa and Sheryl says its one of the best books among the 5).. well so i'm goin to get busy now! tata

i have nothing to pen today.. seem to be quite in a bad mood.. dunnoe why though.. like serious and solemn.. mayb because of the diff stuffs happening..

ohh yar! one important ting.. Drama Club is still goin to be known as Drama Club afterall.. wad a fuss and racket they made man.. and now there is no change (we prefer Drama Club though!)

well should be all.. gd nite man.. i haf to rush for work now..

i just heard evanescence 'my immortal' song on the live radio online.. it is new this week on perfect 10.. but the prob is i haf d/l this song like yrs ago man.. well who cares.. as long it is a FAB-U-LOUS song man.. anyway evanescence is nominated for a few awards for next yrs MTV Asia Awards in spore.. hhhmm i tink it is 'Best Breakthrough Artiste' and 'Best Rock Act Artiste'.. anyway rooting for her for one of the awards.. but for the 'Best Female Artiste', im definitely for michelle branch.. got strong competition though (stars like beyonce, christina aguilera, j lo, and dido).. well may the best man win (or shld i say woman?).. i wanna go watch tv now.. below is the lyrics for 'my immortal'..


"My Immortal" - Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

Remember the times when we were young and innocent; naive in a way..
We perceive things differently from the adults.. and we found our own way through the ups and downs till what we have grown into..
And yet it seems that these happenings are still fresh in our minds.. and we discover we are still who we are.. though different physically; however mentally we are still naive, innocent us..

Field of Innocence.. where the long strands of grass cover us half.. and we find ourselves young at heart.. free with two wide-spread wings..

*yawn* - i have been sleeping for the whole of today.. woke up only for lunch and den it was dreams all the way till now.. not sure why i was so tired.. actually planned to do my hmwk (which is piling on my table!) but looks like my plan is thwarted.. i better concentrate more on my work so looks like i may come online less (unless im tempted which i hope not).. till now cya!

phew.. i am dead beat now.. just took a bath and got back from cantonment area (which is somewhere near tanjong pagar and sentosa) as we had sort of like a grp chalet or stayover there (hope we can have a class chalet next yr as promised by mrs chung if we meet the 'terms & conditions'!).. the house belongs to cleo (it has everything you need from a washing machine to aircons and cutlery, except no telephone)- her family does not live there though..

a few were there today (me, melissa, sheryl, cleo, jiayu, shinye, ryan, shaoxun and joseph).. yesterday karthi and renxin popped by (me, cleo, jiayu, shinye, ryan and shaoxun were there).. and only ryan, shaoxun and cleo stayed 2 nites, while shinye stayed 1 nite..

anyway it was real fun.. the house alone stands at 20 floors high.. real windy and cool.. we swam and played cards; played captain's ball in this sort of veranda at the void deck; and the funniest was 'blind mice'.. i was the first to get blindfolded and it was so hard to move around with the chairs and pillows..

dinner on the both days was not too bad.. on the first nite i made fried rice.. it was alrite (tasteless though as cleo mistook sugar for salt); and the rice burnt leaving stains on the pot.. today we had spaghetti by cleo and we and joseph fried eggs.. fun man but left the whole place oily thanks to joseph who used oil like running water.. but we ate our fill..

well i better go get some rest and take some of the sweet corn soup made by my mum.. so ciao and gd nite..

today was really like Judgement Day.. and it was helll.. everyting went out of sorts..

there was biology SPA (which was a total FLOP!!!).. the first practical went all right at first.. but turned real bad later on.. i tot we weren't supposed to use any other apparatus besides those on the table-top.. ok den just as i tot there was nothing else that could be as bad, the second practical was worse! the qns was quite hard to comprehend and i couldn't do what it stated; the items given were inadequate; the teachers seemed unprepared.. wad the hell.. i was really pissed off and frustrated coz the practical seemed so serious and solemn, but it wasn't really well prepared and the teachers didn't even noe dat the qns couldn't match wad we did..

ok then there was this interview for my sch's Aesthetic Award.. it was delayed by us (shaoxun, jiayu and me) as the SPA ate into our allocated time twice! the interview went all rite.. mr ong and ms goh were there.. and i tink i did stutter and got lost in track of wad to say at times..

VERDICT: Judgement Day- a failure for blur me..

the last chapter: The Second War Begins ; reading this will conclude the story of 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix'.. i noe i am exaggerating this whole mania thing.. but i cant help it.. the book it just too good..

good language..
excellent plot..
superb climax..
fantastic characters..

i am now so keen to get the 4th series 'Harry Potter and the Goblets of Fire'.. weird eh? i read only the first 2 books.. and den skipped to the 5th book.. lucky i managed to understand most of this book at least.. just cant wait for the movies to come out..
well i better go get some sleep and dream of magic!

ok its been a week or so since the start of the holidays.. lovely holidays.. but one thing is for sure this aint any bed of roses.. its like a pit of fire.. its just so hard to cope with the incoming homework and pressure on our next yr 'O's, and the work with LDDC and the Student Council..

pressure: the teachers are fussing so much about our 'O's that the school have came up with timetables, schemes, plans, experiments to put us back on track (especially ever since our sch ranking slid tremendously this yr).. they want us to 'save' the school from dropping further, thus placed their full lot of trust and attention to our batch..

homework: countless amount of scripts and formulas to learn, topped up with chim chinese phrases.. science practical assesments (SPA) for biology coming soon (in fact it is this Friday!).. and foreseen tests that the teachers have so excellently predicted..

well.. as for the pressing matters of LDDC and the Student Council, i shall not mention much.. it is not really some kind of private confidential stuffs but it will be known when it is supposed to be known.. one thing is for sure is that the workload can kill just to finish up these stuffs..

while the workload seem to be burdening, i have still found time to read the 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' (or maybe i left out the other work and went ahead to read this).. now the story is at its climax.. so exciting.. i just cant seem to break away from the enchanting book.. its like there is this Enchantment spell cast on the book and me.. OMG i tink i am too into this magic tingy.. but once the story is finished i will be back to my normal self.. but.....

i have been reading quite alot on 'Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix' lately.. yea i noe.. dat book's been quite some time.. but i didnt have much time previously.. and wads more is i didnt even read the fourth book 'Harry Potter and the Goblets of Fire' so im having such a confusing time just figuring out who is who in the Order of Phoenix..

but one ting is for sure is dat i am soooo sooOOO addicted to it man.. GOSH i have been like wondering how good it is to have such magical powers in me and study in Hogwarts and fight crazeee characters in the book like dat Umbridge woman.. it just seems so real to me.. the adventure is so captivating..

i dunnoe why i am always caught in shows or books with magic, or adventuring across lands or the space, or even with incredible characters.. like 'charmed', 'pirates of the carribean' and the 'x men' movies.. its just appeals to me to be part of such highly spirited team..

haiz.. you do understand.. dont u?

"Say Goodbye" - S Club

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, stnding on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

ok the start of the chemistry lesson today was not what i expected so much.. but it turned for the better for me.. as what Mdm Tong said the class really lacks class spirit.. and if she was to ask me why i am or dun feel like contributing, i will jolly well have said this to her:

"you wanna noe the real reason why i dun feel like contributing? the spirit of contributing is not here with the class.. we have no class spirit as you can very well see and this just puts me off too.."

and what do you think Mdm Tong's reaction might have been? well hard to say hahaha.. the problem with 3/1's class spirit is a major issue.. no doubt that people are still clustering around their own grps.. well at least i am opening up to other like melissa's grp with sheryl, chunfei, and others.. but 'you-know-whose' grp is still the same eh? well its been a year now and still we have seen no signs of IMPROVED class spirit.. im hoping for a change if fate allows it to take place.. hummpph how i hope a miracle could happen..

pamy, faridah and jason w. were here just now.. we went to buy some cloth and paints for the 'Drama' banner for the Sec 1 CCA Orientation happening next yr 10 Jan..
well mayb i shld say 'LDDC' banner which stands for Literary, Drama & Debate Club.. whoah i noe i noe.. wad a big name eh? Drama Club will no longer be known as Drama Club from next yr.. its like a whole lot of stuffs been happening to the DRAMA GANG..

firstly- Mrs Anand left from the Drama Teacher IC post.. but luckily we have 2 new teachers like Ms Goh and Ms Chow..
secondly- our air-conditioned Drama Room been 'robbed' from us and now we have to settle with a smaller, UN-air-conditioned room on the 4th level! poor us..
lastly- the change in name.. and not just a name.. but it means we will no longer just do drama and acting stuffs, but also debating, reciting poetry.. eeeww~

well better be interesting and recruit more members as once the 2001 batch ppl (which is the batch i am in) leaves, LDDC will be like handicapped with way too little ppl in it.. hope more super-enthu ppl will be in the club next yr..
*crossing my fingers

Alone and in the midst of men,
Alone 'mid hills and valleys fair;
Alone upon a ship at sea;
Alone- alone, and everywhere.

O many folks I see and know,
So kind they are I scarce can tell,
But now alone on land and sea,
In spite of all I'm left to dwell.

In cities large- in country lane,
Around the world- 'tis all the same;
Across the sea from shore to shore.
Alone- alone, for evermore.

- Pamela Colman Smith

Azura High- a story written by newbie author Yip Ling. The story revolves around 8 influential people in Azura High. Amusing and realistic, yet sarcastic in a way.

"A story to learn more about school life and sarcascm."
- NorthBound Times

i am now in cleo's house with joyce, starshea, and of course little tween edward.. haha.. well here to do the ZONK Radio tingy.. and it seems no one is doing much stuffs as now we are only talking away gossiping and well, doing nothing..
haha had to bold and put it italic so that it can stand out.. edward keeps on wanting the tween title.. and when we gave him that title he had to oppose to it.. coz u noe why? tween means 'a young child of 8-12 years old'.. muahahaha.. ok now better kewl down.. must go and finish up the work.. tata.. mayb will come back and post more stuffs? will see.. most prob wont.. now my last goodbye.. for today! dunnoe wad rot i toking.. hahaha..

tween for life! young at heart; roam the world will thee..

been a few days already since i last entered my blog.. so busy though holidays! haiz.. chem lesson on mon was kewl wif mdm tong.. she perked me up! hope to see a miracle in my grades if got a change in teachers.. today was like a sch day AGAIN.. everyday like the same routine.. books work and more work!!! but nvm.. sure can 'ai guo' one.. work hard everyone!


everyday c0mes with a surprise.. y0u either take it or leave it, and miss the chance t0 kn0w s0mething new.. just like y0u~


"Here Without You" - 3 Doors Down

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I dont think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when Im dreaming of your face

Im here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

Im here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight its only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

Im here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

Im here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls, when its all said and done
it get hard but it wont take away my love

Im here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

Im here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

*o00oo i just l0ve this song man!~ like the best ever sentimental song so far i have heard.. haaa.. nice.. wonderful.. fabulous.. superb.. da best!~

finally im getting the hang of this.. i at least noe the basics towards htmls i guess.. well tmr is some sort the start of my 2 mnths 'holidays'.. but i still have to go to sch for chem xtra lesson.. and guess who is taking us??? mdm tong.. scary eh.. not mrs supra though.. she has invigilation for 'O's.. better go and get some rest.. nite~

first fallen leaf.. on 1 November 2003